(Post)Christmas 2008 Mistress' Cabinet Pick #6

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Real Life Movie

One of the things young boys figure out when they get into and past puberty is how to get material in order to masturbate. With hormones raging it can and sometimes does become a full-time job. It usually starts with your father's Playboys and then moves into other magazines when you can get a chance or are old enough. This was the case with me. There wasn't the internet while i was growing up so that avenue was not available, though it did become the main source as i got older. 

Unfortunately, with my sexless first marriage it became the only source of pleasure and became a bad habit/addiction i brought into my current marriage. i am very fortunate to a have a loving and caring Mistress to show me the err of my ways and not allow for such nonsense. Mistress has trained me to expel this addiction and to gain pleasure from the one and only thing that matters: Her pleasure.

On occasion i am granted an opportunity that meets both needs. This particular morning Mistress was feeling horny but not in the mood to allow me to touch Her wet pussy. Instead, She masturbated while i hovered over Her so that She could see me pleasing Her cock. She would have me stroke it fast then slow, depending on where She was in Her waves of orgasm. Each time, denying me privilege of coming. Nothing could be hotter than watching Mistress please Herself and watch Her writhe and twitch as She rubbed Her own lips and clit all while watching Her slave stroke Her cock. After a while She came hard and allowed me the explode with Her, commanding me to do so on Her beautiful breasts. Afterwards, i was told to lick up my own spunk in order to clean Her up.

This wonderful scene reminds me of the days of watching porno, but i am reminded on how weak of a arousal it was compared to the joy of watching my Mistress cum hard while i acted as Her own personal porno. It is a movie that i will not soon erase.

Short Spankings

Mistress has been taking to frequent short spankings to me throughout the day at random times. i originally did not care much for spanking when W/we started O/our D/s relationship but have grown to really enjoy them. It has started to turn me on. Having Her slap Her bitch's ass whenever She feels the need, or more importantly, the desire. It gets me excited that it pleases Her and increases Her confidence in Herself. 

The other day i was doing dishes at the sink and She came up behind me and slapped Her sub's ass several times and then followed it up with a wonderful caressing touch. i was ready right then and there for Her to take me as Her ass slave. Right there in the kitchen.

i love the touch of Her hand. But being a Mac fanboy, She could just use this instead. :-)

Merry Xmas!

i was searching around the net for a nice festive wallpaper for my computer and came across this instead and felt i should it share it. 

i guess Santa was in for a big surprise when he came down the chimney at this place. i don't know if it is clear who is naughty and who it nice. But let's get real, does it really matter?

Merry Xmas and a late Festivus. Oh, the "Airing of Grievances" could be fun.

Blog about Blogging

Mistress has proposed a new idea to promote Her growth in writing. She is a very good writer(much better than i am) and She is looking for an avenue to express Herself. i have suggested She write Her own blog, but She feels She needs a more direct subject matter. So She came up with an idea the other day i think is great.(like all of Her ideas)

There is a great website out there called Listverse, in which they create new lists every day about interesting facts and information. Sometimes its serious. Sometimes its funny. Just depends. If you want funny, you should direct your browser to Cracked where you are sure to find interesting AND funny on all of their lists. This spawned an idea.

Mistress would like to collaborate in a "list" type blog related to sex, D/s, and BDSM. i think this is a great idea and look forward to any input some of you readers may have. i don't know how much i can contribute, but i can set it up, maintain, and type it for Mistress. 

Or, i can just help her this way.

Christmas 2008 Mistress' Cabinet Pick #5

Mistress has explored many different sensations with me and my body over the past year or so. Some things were immediately enjoyed and put in the category of "like". Others were not. Interestingly enough, but not surprising, Mistress has taught me how to enjoy those things that i originally did not like that much(nipple play, spanking, hitting). Through Her wisdom and training, i am deriving more and more pleasure from these acts. i am sure it is from Her training, but i have to assume that some of it is from knowing how much it pleases Her. 

One of the sensations i would like Mistress to explore and for me to explore with Her is e-stim. i do not know much about it other than it turns me on that Mistress could control my muscles with a push of a button. Almost like i was a little robot bitch for Her. i do not dismiss the idea of using it on Her for Her additional pleasure. From what i have read the sensations vary and cause different muscle reactions. If the picture down below doesn't say "Cock Bondage", i don't know what does.

Christmas 2008 Mistress' Cabinet Pick #4

When Mistress decided for U/us to enter into our D/s relationship, one of the things She did was to purchase a steel collar for me to wear 24/7. i loved it. it was a symbol of my devotion and submission to Mistress. I wore it for about a year and a half. That included at work(i was a teacher). Most of the time the students didn't think much of it, but the most common assumption was that i was wearing one of those "health" collars to center my "chi". 

Before a plane flight for our anniversary, Mistress removed the collar to go through security, and we never put it back. At that time our D/s relationship was on a down slope(as many go up and down) and She decided to leave it off. Well, over time we just decided to leave it off even though W/we were still in our D/s relationship. Then, about a month or so ago, Mistress saw a picture of me with it on and was taken back at how blatant it was. Originally, W/we did not think it as obvious and as time went on got accustomed to it being a regular part of me. When all of that time lapsed without me having it around my neck, it looked shocking.

Ok, so what am i getting at. i would love to wear the collar again. i would be honored to earn it again. But, W/we are business owners and Mistress worries about O/our public image. So the next item in which i feel Mistress may have a outward display of our relationship would be the anklets from Eternity Collars. It would be clear to Her and at the same time be able to keep it out of the eyes of the public. Not to mention, two less restrains She would have to attach when She wanted to tie me up and have Her way with me. Yum!

Christmas 2008 Mistress' Cabinet Pick #3

So now she would have the position maintained for Her viewing and fucking pleasure. Secondly, She would have the right tool for the job to give the most enjoyable ass fucking. Now, Mistress needs a little help in keeping Her new cock in place. 

One of the problems with a double ended dildo like this and your run of the mill harness is that most harnesses have a flat back to them that does not allow for a dildo to come from behind it. The solution is....

The Pretty Boi harness. With this harness, She could place the Feeldoe(or even better) Her Nexus inside of Her and slide the penetrating  end through the hole in the front. Then She would be able to fuck hard or soft without any worry of Her dildo slipping out of Her pussy.

It should be like the perfect alignment of the planets. Out of this world!

Christmas 2008 Mistress' Cabinet Pick #2

Once Mistress has me in the position She want's me in to ass fuck me, She would need the right tool to make sure She received the maximum pleasure from fucking . Currently, Mistress has a Feeldoe that She likes but has problems keeping it inside Her. One of the alternatives i think She would enjoy would be the Nexus Maximus.

With this double-ended dildo, Mistress would have a cock up inside of Her while She was shoving Her cock into Her bitch's ass. In addition, there is an insertable vibrator for Her extra pleasure. What is most significantly different about this dildo is the construction of the part that is inserted into Her. With the Feeldoe, She inserts a bulb into Her luscious pussy and it can be difficult for Her to keep it in. i think this item is a large improvement over the Feeldoe and would result in Mistress' pleasure to be doubled.

"On the first day of Christmas, my Mistress gave to me...."

Okay, so it's not the twelve days of Christmas yet, but with surfing the net and seeing all of the "25 things" and "Company X's Shopping Guide" leading up to Christmas, i thought i may present some of the things Mistress' cabinet may be missing. Mistress regularly asks me what i like and what turns me on. It is very kind of Her to take my opinion into consideration and i am not known for being forthcoming with my feelings and opinions, especially when it comes to sex and D/s. So i thought i would present some items that may excite Mistress and would turn me on. i will post throughout the season on a semi-regular basis.

So, without any further ado, here is the start of some of my picks for this holiday season.

"Have you met my friend Ben? Ben Dover?"

Oh the thought of Mistress keeping me in the ultimate submissive position for Her enjoyment knowing that i would not be able to get up without ripping my balls off. i would then be ready for Her ass fucking that would show me what a little ass slut i was. Mistress has mentioned several times lately She has wanted to fuck my little bitch ass with Her big cock. This is definitely the tool to start the job.

Orange Crush

Okay...i think it's interesting when your D/s senses are tweaked you hear things differently(or more clearly). Mistress was playing Rock Band and even though i have heard the song many times i missed a certain lyric...."Collar me, don't collar me."

Just food for thought. More thoughts on it another time.

Thanksgiving Treat

This morning i was allowed the privilege of pleasing my Mistress by eating Her luscious pussy out until She orgasmed several times. This was particularly special since it had been a long time since i had earned the treat of pleasing Her orally. i enjoyed watching Her moan and twitch as Her beautiful body flinched with each climax. The image of Her repeated pleasure in conjunction with the delicious taste of Her wetness in my mouth has lingered on throughout the day. It even made it difficult to concentrate as i played billiards with my family members. i can't wait for the next time to please Mistress again. Knowing that i am pleasing Her makes me want to do it over and over again.

Taking me

Happy Thanksgiving!!

i am thankful for the wonderful meal Mistress made the entire family. It was hard work and the first time She had ever attempted it. Needless to say, the meal 

was outstanding and i am v ery thankful for Her hard work.

i am also thankful that Mistress has been dropping hints that She wants to take me like the little bitch i am. i am very excited since it has been a long time since Mistress has pleased Herself with Her big long cock on Her little bitch's ass. 

i hope time will present itself this vacation so that i may be able to please Her again in this fashion She so desires.

Communication

Mistress has requested that i write about O/our working on communication between U/us. i have noticed that W/we have become closer through this regular talking. i find that i am able to truly understand Her needs when W/we are making a regular connection daily. It also allows U/us to "check in" and replay the events and interactions of the day and how they played out. Sometimes this is really important because there may be unresolved issues that were glossed over or just ignored that need to be and should be resolved. By taking time regularly to discuss these times, good and bad, Mistress can share how She felt at that time and i can do the same, if She requests. These may not even be bad interactions, but may be a way of taking inventory of what happened during the day before it becomes too buried in the past. 

Sometimes events that are not discussed can fester and cause resentment between a couple. This "check in" keeps the pressure from building in the emotional soda bottle from things that have remained unresolved. This kind of communication is essential in the success of a marriage and a D/s relationship. Revisiting feelings that have occurred during the day need to be resolved before they become compiled with other feelings. This can cause a masking of the true problem or prevent either one from getting to the heart of the true feelings about any one situation. Most importantly, it allows me to know and better serve my Mistress.

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Semi-hard on a regular basis

Since Mistress and i have amped up O/our playtime recently, i have found that Her cock has been almost in a semi-hard state on a regular basis. This is different because normally Her cock will be in it's smallest state since i have not taken the proper time and effort to please Her. Due to my lack of attentiveness, Her cock will receive little attention and will feel less than worthy because of the failure on my part to properly please Her.

Mistress has been very busy at work and it has taken away from Her dominant feelings. They have recently come back strong, resulting in me being more attentive to Her needs. This in turn has led to more time for me to please Her. Thoughts of pleasing Her and having Her cum again and again make Her cock hard. It causes it to be even semi-erect on a regular basis. Nothing is more satisfying than knowing my Mistress is totally fulfilled. And that satisfaction leads to Her cock being ready for Her needs on a moments notice.

Delayed Gratification

Does the old adage "Good guys finish last." really exist. If you ask any good sub that question, i guarantee the answer will always be "YES!". Mistress has taken the time and patience to teach me this since W/we ventured into our D/s relationship. She has taught me that my true and only purpose is to serve Her and without Her saying anything, i have learned that when i do a good job serving Her and making sure that Her sexual needs are taken care of, i will feel good about Her pleasure. When i am not meeting Her expectations, not only is She disappointed, but i feel less than worthy.

i love that She uses this as motivation. A "Delayed Gratification" so to speak.(for lack of a better word). If Mistress is amply pleased then She may or may not play with Her cock. if i am lucky, use me as Her fuck toy. This may not be true "delayed gratification" but more a reward for good service. This reward in not absolute. If She feels She is done with me, than that is where it is. More often, She likes to show me Her appreciation of my effort and attention. This is because i am very fortunate to have a loving and caring Mistress who takes very good care of me. i am definitely one luck sub.

If more men realized their true place in their relationships was to serve their Mistress, we would not have the amount of divorces that we have today. As i have said, nothing makes me happier than knowing that my Mistress is pleased. 

Another new milestone

This past weekend Mistress and i had some alone playtime and it seems i have reached a new milestone in my pursuit of Her pleasure. Since the time when W/we first got together, i was able to please Her TWICE with Her cock. This is a HUGE deal because i am not usually able to last long because Her incredibly hot body and luscious pussy causes me to cum in a short time.

This time, Mistress made sure this was not a problem. She bound me up and had me rub Her cock to orgasm. Afterwards, i proceeded to lick and please Her entire body. This led to Her cock becoming semi erect and She seized the moment. She rode Her cock long and hard, which is Her favorite way to use it. This time i did not cum until after she did. 

After a while close time together, Mistress decided She wanted more cock in Her pulsing pussy. i was not about to disappoint Her with my previous success in getting Her to cum. Once again, i was able to please Mistress in one of Her favorite ways, fast and hard pounding of Her wet vagina. Needless to say, i feel like this was a milestone in pleasing Her and i look forward to when i can be the capable sub She needs again.

Exciting Week ahead

Mistress and i are coming up on some unusual alone time this week. The way events have played out, O/our daughter is going to be out tonight at her first sleepover party. This will be the first time that she will be out for the night that hasn't involved planning to have someone watch her. In addition, one of O/our vendors is sending U/us to New York for a conference. It looks like W/we will be able to take advantage of the trip by stopping in the Poconos for a romantic long weekend away. 

Needless to say, i am very excited to take this time to give Mistress the very attention She needs without having to worry about O/our daughter. This week i will be able to give her my undivided attention. 

Mistress has requested that She would like to be prepared a candlelight dinner at home. It is unusual that time and family allows for this. i am getting excited just thinking of preparing to please Mistress in the way she desires to be pleased on a longer timeline. i have been thinking of what i need to do to prepare myself as to please her the most. i am planning on doing a full body shave in which i have not done in a long while. i am hopeful that this too will please Her. i can be Her little bitch shaved slave for the night. Making her dinner in the attire that she feels fit. 

Mistress has given me a recipe to work from so that i can go out and get the ingredients to prepare Her meal. i am also very excited about how i may please her all night without worrying about interruptions. i receive such joy from watching my Mistress be pleased. i can even cum watching Her orgasm, which i hope i can do for her many times tonight.

i know our time tonight will be short, but it should be an exciting prelude to our time away this week. Nothing makes me happier than pleasing Her.

Masturbation

One of the many great things Mistress has done for me is cure me of my masturbation and porn addiction. Having been married previously to someone for 6 years who was not interested in "vanilla" intercourse or any other type of sex in the least, i responded to my habit of masturbating to porn which followed me from my adolescence. 

When i met Mistress, She told me that masturbation was healthy as long as i was open with Her. That was much more difficult than it sounded. i had spent many years being taught it was bad and i should be ashamed of it. Mistress encouraged me to to not be so secretive about it but was never successful in overcoming this hurdle. i would continue to masturbate in private and keep it secret. Over time, Mistress became frustrated with me since i was still toting along this bad habit. This, of course, was all before W/we entered into O/our D/s relationship.

At first, i gave Mistress control over my orgasms through the use of a CB-3000 as a gift. This forced me to be very aware of who and when someone would touch Her cock. Relinquishing control over my orgasms was difficult but i had to undo 10+ years of this problem. W/we had ups and downs and as time went on and Mistress allowed me to not locked up in the CB-3000. i had developed some problems with chafing and irritation and coincidentally at that same time Mistress had increased her control over me.

Through the giving up of orgasms by myself and having Mistress control every time Her cock is to be touched i was able to remove the monkey from my back. i could not have done this without her. The only time i am allowed to touch Her cock is when She commands me to masturbate for Her. This pleases me also. But it pleases me that it turns Her on and makes Her feel more in control.

Now i am free of this problem. Now i am free to please Her. Instead of orgasms just being a utilitarian function that is selfish and solitary, they are something that belongs to Mistress for Her pleasure. And that, more than anything, makes me happy. To please her. To know that when I cum, it is for Her and Her only. This makes these moments so much more special and makes me want to please Her more and more. Even when we have "vanilla" sex, i still ask Her permission to cum because it is Her cock and She decides what happens to it. i am a very lucky man to have such a wonderful Mistress.

D/s Toychest

If You are ever traveling through Connecticut and would like to stop somewhere for some treats for Your Mistress, You must make a stop in Meriden at the D/s Toychest. This unsuspecting place is located on top of a pizza place and could easily missed from the road. Mistress and i were doing some traveling that way and made a stop. Let me say, We/we will be making it a regular visit when we go through that part of the country.

The D/s Toychest has an extensive collection of "vanilla" adult toys as well as a multitude of D/s equipment. Their collection of leather, latex, and vinyl is very complete. They also have most BDSM toys and furniture You may come across online. the benefit being that You actually get to see these items up close and touch them. They even have a consignment section made up of things people are no longer using or trading in. 

They have more things than i could ever cover in this blog. Do Yourself a favor and checkout www.dstoychest.com and make a stop by this most excellent D/s emporium

Fulfilled my duties

i had one of the most amazing experiences the other day with Mistress. After many years of being together i had finally been able to get Her to climax while she rode her cock all out. In the past, when Mistress permitted me to allow Her cock to enter Her, i would cum instantly due to Her incredible beauty and wetness. i would try to concentrate on something else but would always be pulled back by Her hard riding up and down and Her sensual moaning. Who wouldn't cum?

But this time, Mistress not only allowed me to cum once inside of Her(an incredible privilege) but twice. The second time was very shortly after the first and so Her cock was not as sensitive as usual. After some extra effort and concentration, Her cock was able to be mounted and she did it with great vigor. She rode long and hard, which is Her favorite form of pleasure. Not only did She climax once, but allowed me to climax and second time in which she did also.

i truly feel i have fulfilled my duties as Her sexual toy. i had great satisfaction in being able to have her cum on her cock twice and to be able to watch her enjoyment without the duress of climaxing too early. i hope i am able to do this again now that we know what to do.

Disappointed Mistress

i have been neglectful in posting on this blog. Mistress had requested that i post on a regular basis and i have not done so. i have no excuses other than i have been neglectful of doing what is asked of me. The purpose of this blog is to post my feelings, experiences, and thoughts on O/our D/s relationship. This will need to change.

Mistress has stated that i have sent Her a message by not posting and that i should not bother at this point. Out of respect for Her, i will continue posting. i understand that i have let Her down and that She has certain expectations of Her sub. Since i have done several drafts over the past two months, i will be posting them shortly afterwards.

Mistress, i am sorry for letting You down and i hope that i can make it up to You.

Hairless

One of the rituals i do that Mistress always enjoys is shaving. i am not speaking about shaving in the traditional sense, but shaving of the "other" parts of my body. Mistress prefers that i regularly shave Her/my cock. In addition she likes for Her/my chest, ass, and armpits be clean shaven also. Whenever life gets busy and i am neglectful of my duties to properly serve her, i will always step up my duties and make sure that i include shaving as part of it. 

It makes Her/my cock throb doing it. Probably because it is the only time i am allowed to touch it outside of going to the bathroom. i do not dare do anything more because the act of shaving reminds me of whose cock it is. i am weak, and cannot help but get hard when i think of how pleased She will be when She sees Her cock with just the skin and nothing else to hide it. i must admit, my cock is small and anything that can be done to create an image that it is large is indeed welcomed.

There are times when i will shave my legs as well. Mistress especially enjoys that since it makes me look like the sissy boy i am. But i do love pleasing Mistress and making her happy. If that means being Her sissy boy, than i will do that with all i can.

Unfortunately Bad Kitty

Mistress took me on vacation this week to Myrtle Beach last week. One of the hobbies Mistress would like to do is to visit the local "adult" toy store in town. i have always found this exciting and would be excited to see what new toys W/we would come across that would better serve Mistress and her beautiful body. After making a visit to Myrtle Beach's "The Badd Kitty", Mistress felt that it is unfortunate that their isn't a resource online of these places and how they fair, especially in the D/s community. i offered to add to my blog reviews of places we have gone and visit in the future. She thought that was an excellent idea, so here is my first review of many more to come:

In a town such as Myrtle Beach with a multitude of strip clubs and lingerie stores, that there is a shortage of adult toys available. Upon driving up and down the strip(rt 17) You will find many clubs and video stores. Mistress and i figured that this was a sign that we were in a sexually open town. Unfortunately, our visit to "The Badd Kitty" proved wrong.

A visit to "The Badd Kitty" was nothing more than a visit to a Victoria's Secret but on a skanky level. They had many outfits to choose from. i guess if You were wanting to dress up for Halloween and do it up "sluty", this would be the place to go. Which made me realize the shops primary customer, strippers. While W/we were in there a Girl from one of the clubs was trying on outfits for work. Her conversation eluded to that She was the third Girl in that day getting a new outfit. 

A corner of the shop was set aside for adult toys. They had your usual vibrators, dildos, and such. They even had quality brands represented there. I was surprised to see some Liberator shapes. In addition, the had a small wall for bondage, (ala vanilla starter kit). You would think from this description the store was actually very good, except that they advertise "A Store for Couples" and include a black leather whip on their website. Overall W/we were disappointed, but that may be because we have been spoiled by some incredible BDSM shops in the past. 

Overall, if you are looking for a hot outfit or some of your standard far toys, The Badd Kitty will probably suit your needs. If you are looking for something a little more kink, i think You may need to look outside Myrtle Beach. 

 

Her pet

There are many times in which Mistress and i lay in bed and wind down for the day in which i will sit and service Her in various ways. Sometimes it will be just as simple as stroking her hair. Other times it may be scratching or rubbing her back. If i am fortunate little bitch, i will be allowed to service her by licking her wonderful pussy. Just the thought of it makes Her cock get hard(as i write this). There is nothing more satisfying than to hear my Mistress moan in pleasure as i service Her beautiful body. 

Some nights while i stroke her back or her hair, she will rub Her cock. It is at times like these that i feel that i am truly Her little pet. The kind of pet that is pleased to see his Mistress serviced they way She should. Worshipped liked a Queen.

my first post

Churches throughout the United States have followed the trend of commercial businesses by putting catchy phrases on their marquees in order to get your attention and possibly attract you to their church. At bare minimum, they would like to be able to at least provoke you to think a little more critical about your life. Well, the particular sign i saw did indeed provoke thoughts, but i do not think the thoughts it brought to mind were the ones intended by the author. The marquee said, "It's hard to fall over when you are on your knees.". At first it made me chuckle and then i started reflecting. 

my Mistress has instructed me to keep a journal of my thoughts and feelings about O/our relationship and experiences in O/our D/s lifestyle. i could not think of any better analogy to illustrate my feelings and desire for my Mistress than that church marquee with the unintended double meaning. Just as one would obtain stability through prayer(on your knees), i receive stability in my life by serving and pleasing my Mistress. When i submit to Mistress(again on my knees), i am truly centered by her direction, instruction, leadership, and compassion. i only obtain this when Mistress is properly cared for and serviced.  Then i know all is good with the world.

This blog will be a way to reflect on these feelings and thoughts since i struggle with verbalizing them. i would be open to any comments or suggestions anyone may offer.