Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Two incidents occurred that brought this post to mind. One was of the the post on one of the blogs i follow, King Unleashed. The other was some intimate time Mistress and i a week or so ago.

Elle over at Kink Unleashed wrote about the definition of fellatio and Her feelings on the subject. She also addressed Her boy toy's thoughts on the matter. i would have to say that i agree with BT(Boy Toy) and feel that receiving fellatio feels wrong. It is degrading the person giving it. i feel guilty receiving it since She is pleasuring me with Her mouth where it should be me that is uncomfortable and pleasuring Her. Do not get me wrong, it feels great! The times i am fortunate enough to be given such a gift by Mistress, i love it. But at the same time i feel guilty. That it is an act usually reserved for the vanilla folks or the male Dominant couples. i do understand at the same time that if She did not want to do it, She wouldn't. i also understand that She may be doing it for Her own pleasure. And this is Her choice. But sometimes i cannot help but be in conflict with myself partaking in an activity that is usually for the purpose to please the Mistress or humiliate the sub. it has been engrained that sucking cock is a job for the bitch.

The second time is this past weekend when Mistress felt i had earned some pleasuring and was incapacitated by a recent injury. This meant that She couldn't use one of Her hands like She normally does. Instead, She decided to use Her luscious mouth. And oh, did it feel good. i think She stopped and moved to Her other hand because She knows me and knows how quick i can cum when it "feels really good".

i cannot deny loving the feeling of Mistress' mouth and tongue on my little cock. But at the same time feel bad for taking on such a pleasure. i guess that is why when it happens, it is truely a gift that should not be taken for granted.

Brush with The Real World

Well, today was the first time in a while that aspects of O/our D/s relationship met with a stranger in the vanilla world. Mistress and i had to be in the big city in the federal building to for a meeting about O/our finances and O/our business. Surprisingly, W/we had considered the possible problem of getting through security with my metal anklets on. Unfortunately, W/we couldn't locate the tool needed to remove them in time to leave. i figured that since i had already been through airport security with my metal collar without as much as a whisper that today would not be any different. Well, it seems the feds have better security than the airlines.

W/we got there and just as W/we were to go through W/we were stopped and told no cell phones. O/our attorney immediately appeared right behind U/us and offered to take them in. Needless to say, that was also a no-no. So i sent Mistress in and walked back to the parking garage to put O/our phones in the car. When i returned everything was fine sending my stuff through. That was, until i had to walk through and the sensor went off. The gentleman waved his wand over my body without any problem and sent me through again. Buzz!!! He then had me remove my watch. Buzz!!! So i figured, what did i have to lose. i told them i think i may know what may be setting it off. i then rolled down my socks to show my metal anklets. The nice guy asked me if i could remove them in which i told him "Not easily" He chuckled and asked if they were welded on.

Surprisingly enough, that was it. i guess either they have seen it all or had no idea on how to react. i think as time goes on and i get older, i am worrying less and less what other people think and ready to face these confrontations head on.