What i did realize is how much i rely on Mistress for guidance and stabiliztion. i have always known my position in O/our relationship but never realized that just Her presence is enough to make me feel better with the world, no matter how bad it may be. i had one day this week that was especially crazy and She offered to come in even though She had planned to not do so. When She came into work She didn't even need to do anything. For what it was worth, She didn't do much at all. But Her mere presence was enough to set the universe right and make things better.
It just really shows that Mistress does have the powers Her title dictates and how much She makes my life better. i am a lucky sub.