Too Hot Not to Share!

In reading through my list of favorite blogs, i came across this post on the Married Domme that really "ground my gears". By "ground my gears", i mean turned me on. It seems i wasn't the only one turned on by this video. Though, i do feel that i was turned on for different reasons. Take a look.

This video and others like it turn me on because they give me ideas of things i could do for Mistress or things Mistress would like to do to me. Now, i wouldn't be excited about the idea of being locked up for 8 months, but i am sure that after that much time and the situation above, i could pull off a 1 minute orgasm(of course i have a quick trigger anyway). What really turned me on was the idea of maybe filming a video using a alternative like that blow up doll. i remember The Path Least Chosen blog which is now defunct and anthony had his little stuffed animal bear. But something about having that alternative pussy and performing for Mistress would be incredibly hot. Knowing how hot She would get knowing that i was fucking a pussy, not allowed to cum unless granted, all for Her pleasure. The whole idea turns me on and most likely is tied to the video fantasy or desire.

i remember when got Her first Strap-on harness and dildo. She could not wait to get home and fuck Her little bitch in the ass. Mistress was already dripping wet before She even slipped Her big cock in my bitch ass, knowing that this was the true expression of Dominance over me. i am fairly sure having me fuck a fake "puss" would make rare times Mistress would allow me inside of Her even more special. Who knows, maybe would even want to fuck my ass while i was putting it Her cock in the fake one. Even better, it could be my "practice puss" to work towards controlling myself so i can satisfy Her for the as long as She wants. i don't know, but it all sounds hot. Thanks Married Domme for sharing!

Bad Santa

Well, i have managed to screw things up again. Of course, being my own fault, i am the only one to blame. This Christmas i never managed to get any for Mistress. i spent much time considering what i could get Her, but the problem is that She is so generous and selfless that She never expresses anything She wants(materially). To add to the problem, i am not very good at making decisions by myself. In the past, when i had planned something special for Her for one of the important Holidays of the year, i have ended up sharing it with Her before hand(instead of making it a surprise) and W/we would change it up to something She really wanted to do.

This does not excuse me from not getting Her anything, but in my own little mind, had hoped that She would get me nothing this Christmas and that i could make it up to Her by taking Her out and spoiling Her for the day(Not that Mistress needs a holiday to be taken out). But at least i would feel that She would get what She desires and the money wouldn't be wasted on something She wouldn't like, never use, and just pretend to like.

Her most recent birthday i managed to do about 50%. Which was better than i was expecting since i was running low on ideas. i had been working on it for several months but had been coming up dry. The inspiration came in the 12th hour and i managed to pick something pretty good. Actually, i think She enjoyed all of Her gifts, but i think what She liked the most was Her new watch.

After discussing this with Her today, She made me aware of many little things She would like. The other problem i run into is that i put artificial high expectations on how i would like each Holiday to turn for Her. i desire for every gift i get Mistress to be as meaningful and special as the first gifts W/we exchanged W/we first met. That leads me to make no decision since it doesn't meet my demands. Instead, i should have bought Her small gifts(the act is more important that gift).

i hope to try to make it up to Her this upcoming week, though She doesn't like to spend money on Herself. i think a nice day of pampering is in order. i know i really screwed up this year but i hope to try to make it up to Her All i know is that i better not show up to any holiday empty handed. Sorry Mistress.

An Early Christmas Present-Part 2

So Mistress had gotten very aroused and hot and bothered after O/our short time together. So much, that right after the alarm went off on Friday morning, i felt some rubbing on my naked ass. Mistress had gotten up and started snuggling close to me. Rubbing my ass, moaning, stroking my leg. This is definitely one of the best ways to wake up in the morning. But it got better.

Unbenounced to me, Mistress was craving Her cock again. She managed to reach around and stroke it little by little. By this time, i had rolled over to my back and had Her stroking Her toy. Mistress didn't seem satisfied with the climax that drained Her cock last night. She wanted to drain every drop that had been stored up over the past 1 3/4 weeks. So She rubbed faster and faster, knowing i would not be able to take it much longer(She knows me so well). i asked if She wanted me to cum in which She responded with the affirmation that She wanted Her little bitch to climax. i then shuddered again, like the night before, all over. This time, i am sure She drained Her cock dry. Afterwards, i offered to service Her but She declined, pleased with Her morning activities and ready to go about Her day.

So Christmas came(pun) early this year in O/our house. Even though her cock is dry, it still aches for Her more than ever.

An Early Christmas Present-Part 1

Things have been on the down low recently with the hustle and bustle of the holidays, my parents visiting, and Mistress finishing up Her Masters Thesis class for Her degree last week. So much of Mistress' energies have been put towards that and with whatever leftover energy She has been focusing on providing warm quality family time for the holidays. i have really enjoyed it. W/we have spent much free time this past weeks just being together as a family and enjoying each other. She has also renewed some hobbies to help with the stress. i have done a little of that but have tried to be more helpful around the house and to Her needs. i have also been doing some more blog reading which always leads me to more thinking about Mistress.

So on Thursday night, Mistress noticed that i have been extra attentive to Her and particularly affectionate. i had felt bad that She had not been serviced in a while or hadn't masturbated. Mistress in Her wonderful kindness felt bad it had been a while since either one of U/us had climaxed told me to follow Her into the bedroom while O/our daughter was taking a shower.

After getting naked and making out for a short time, She was reminded how much She missed being pleased. After rubbing Her untouched pussy and bringing Her to an orgasm, i was instructed to get a condom and pleasure Her with Her cock!! i couldn't believe it. It had been a long time since Mistress had desired the pleasuring of Her pussy with Her eager cock. Of course i didn't waste any time following my instructions and slowly put Her throbbing cock inside Her eager mound. I offered to place numbing cream on it so that i may pleasure Her longer and without the risk of climaxing too quickly. She turned down the idea leu of the fact that O/our time together was going to be short anyway. That was exactly what it was. But that doesn't mean it wasn't pleasurable. i was able to bring Her to climax with Her cock and i was allowed to cum with Her, though i am not sure i would have been able to hold off after hearing the sounds of Her moans.

W/we had a little time to recoup afterward before O/our daughter was going to be out of the shower. i think this short time together triggered Her sex drive, because She was hot and bothered the next morning......

Thumper's Rule

i recently read a thought provoking post at Denying Thumper. In it he outlines a new rule instituted between him and his Mistress in order to promote more intimate pleasure for his Queen. Here is the synopsis he listed on his blog:

• I am not allowed to come on to her within 72 hours of her last orgasm. She, of course, is still free to instigate something, but I’m to respect her personage for at least three days after she comes.
• On the third night, I can try to seduce her (including putting my hands in places they aren’t normally allowed to go), but if she tells me she’s not interested I need to withdraw immediately and wait until the next day to make another move (or however long she prefers).

i have been known to also be less than attentive in the intimacy category in the past. Lets face it, life gets in the way and sometimes even Mistress' may need a little spark to remind them that She is as desired as well as worshiped. i think this plan, as dry as it may be, might work well to keep that alarm set to make sure Mistress is not only serviced but reminded that She always feels that She is a desirable woman.

The one flaw is that the timeline may be too ling for Mistress. In reality, i think She may want to be approached constantly so this may not work. i always desire Mistress but sometimes i need a wake up call that rings louder than the everything else around me. W/we will see how it goes and if Mistress thinks this is a good idea. She may feel it is a bit robotic but i think it may help keep those cooling embers stoked.

my Honor

i am so proud of of Mistress! She has been working on Her masters degree since the spring and just finished Her Masters Thesis last night. i know it was a huge accomplishment for Her to dothis all the while working full time in a new career. Unfortunately, this does not mean the end of Her Masters work since the thesis came a little over 3/4 through the process, but it still is a huge hurdle behind Her and She can not have to worry about it anymore. i am so proud of Her and all of Her hard work.

As you can imagine, it has made it even more challenging to try to connect and have quality time together. But i think W/we have managed well

and after some deep discussions, a getaway for Thanksgiving, i feel W/we are doing better. i am feeling more submissive and in turn i am not letting Mistress down.

On other notes, W/we have not had any real "play time" for Mistress but it seems W/we manage to squeeze in some orgasms for Mistress(and She is VERY generous to reciprocate if i have been good and attentive). W/we had a nice shower together this past weekend which reminded me that W/we do not hardly do that enough. i offered to come in and wash Her back, body and hair. i love doing that for Her and i need to find more times to do that. Of course, that turned Mistress on and i rubbed Her wet pussy to orgasm. i was not allowed to cum.

Later that weekend W/we found a little time to play with the Hitachi Magic Wand and i brought Mistress to climax a couple of times, after which She quickly had me cum with the wand myself.

See, i am very lucky. She is not only beautiful, generous, kind, caring, loving. She is also very smart(as per Her academic pursuits). it is amazing that i am married and owned my such an amazing Woman.

i do not have any items to give Her. So i present this award. i figure it is appropriate since it seems like it may be a accurate replica of Her cock.

Two worlds collide

For the first time in my life i had a moment in which my D/s lifestyle and my vanilla life came head to head and almost collided. i am sure many of you out there feel as though you are mildly schizophrenic in trying to keep these two worlds apart. Some folks are fortunate that they do not have to hide their true self from the world, but the rest of us must maintain the vanilla status quo in order to protect our professional lives. Because of that, i live two lives in person and online. There is the side of me the general public, family, and most friends see. Then there is the side of me that Mistress sees and i share with certain folks online. All along keeping two separate identities.

So i was on facebook(with my one identity) and noticed a friend from high school had posted Her status as having to get fit in order to play a dominatrix in an upcoming play this January. i wanted to comment and even offer suggestions in which She could read up in order to get into character. Just before commenting i realized i couldn't do that. i am not "out" with my vanilla friends and they would not understand. So i let it go.

For the first time in my life i think i started to know how it must feel to be a homosexual and still in the closet. Of course this hardly compares to the discrimination gays face day to day. But, i felt like i had a very small clue what it must be like to have to hide part of yourself in fear of judgement by your friends and family.

Mistress and i cannot really be pigeon holed into Republican/Democrat or Conservative/Liberal but W/we have always been in support of a persons right to be who they want to be and to live their live as they see fit, as long as it doesn't harm anyone else. Needless to say, the sympathy i had for the gay community(and any other group that lives in secret out of fear) has grown even more.

i consider myself lucky that i can be who i am with my Wife and the folks who i have met who are part of D/s.