Weekend Recovered

As stated in Mistress' blog and here, W/we were supposed to get together with Domina and anthony this Saturday for a second try at dinner. Unfortunately, the plans fell through at the last moment and Mistress and i were left sitting looking at each other two hours before we were supposed to meet. It would not have been so bad if W/we hadn't driven O/our daughter to her grandmother's for the weekend the night before(3 hour ride each way). Also, W/we have the added difficulty of living far away from a big city, so making new plans was out of the question. So Saturday was spent in sitting around in a blue funk and just frustrated.

Don't get me wrong, i really like Domina and anthony. But until anthony can manage his ex-wife and put his foot down on her irresponsible behavior, this is always going to be problem. i hope that they can work it out so Domina and anthony can be together without interference.

So Sunday arrived, which meant, getting back in the car and putting another 6 hours on the road. Mistress decided to take it upon herself to make the drive alone since i had a church commitment that morning. Also, that way, She would be home at a decent hour. i decided that since i would have the day to myself that i would take it upon myself to clean up O/our bedroom so that it would be more conducive to being together instead of bringing the feeling of crashing.

Having stewed on the text messages Mistress sent me on Thursday, i decided to return the favor. i was getting hard just thinking about them. One in particular, "Lick me from my clitoris to my asshole" had me wound up. It had been a very long time since Mistress had let me partake in the feast of Her mound. Knowing She would need some cheering up, i sent Her one hot message after another, expressing my desire to taste Her and please Her.

my messages were met with approval. i even sent a couple of pictures(utilizing the new MMS feature on the iPhone) of how hard She made me. Mistress instructed me to take a picture of my ass and a pic of it spread, of which i was happy to oblige.

By the time She arrived home, W/we were both wound up. W/we made arrangement for O/our daughter to lay down while i serviced Mistress. Oh boy! i could have eaten Her out all day an night. i made Her cum over and over again. Each time harder. Mistress then desired Her cock inside of Her. i suggested using the special medical cream so that She could ride it the way She likes. After apply the cream, She mounted and rode Her cock hard. Porn Star hard. i was so pleased to watch Her get off on Her cock.

Mistress came several times this way, including Her ejaculating also. i was instructed to get on top and give it to Her. It was wonderful knowing i could do as She asked without the fear of it ending too soon. W/we both ended up coming and having to stop out of sheer exhaustion.

it wasn't a very D/s scene, but it was no less hot. And most importantly, Mistress was serviced. i was very glad we were able to turn the weekend around and make something out of it.

A Wonderful Night Ruined....

...by me.

Thursday is my scheduled long night at work, due to O/our daughter's after school activities. With what she has and where it is located, it doesn't make sense to go home in between, so i stay at work and try to get things done.

Just like most days recently, things have been very hectic and busy at work. i was pleasantly surprised when i received a text message from Mistress instructing me to go into the bathroom and stroke Her cock and stop before climaxing, three times. i texted back asking if She desired proof(video). She did. i was very excited. i love making videos for Mistress and it has been a while since She has requested one. The only other instruction was that to make it different. This was a challenge since i was at work and had little to work with.(no pun intended) So i proceeded to the bathroom to complete my task. i was already half bulging out of my pants before i even got started i was so excited. i managed to make video of about 5 min in length and tried to dress(or undress) it up. i do desire for Mistress come up with different things She would like to see on video.

i was pretty wound up most of the day after that. Mistress continued to send hot messages that kept getting me excited for Her. i knew She had a hold on me since it is difficult to snap out of the "work world" and be there in that mindset. Many times, even when i am speaking with Mistress on the phone, i am interrupted by other phone calls, customers, and employees.

The later part of the day was spent trying to balance trying to post up the video for Mistress(video was too large to email) and getting things done. In the messaging back and forth, Mistress has commented that She thought there were changes in store for this weekend's "Take 2" with Domina and anthony. W/we somehow got on the discussion of hard limits and i felt like i wanted to discuss this with Mistress and try to explore my feelings. The problem arose when i arrived home last night that my daughter was being particularly chatty and needy and i was having a difficult time accessing those feelings. By nature, i usually start with the negatives, which ends up taring down Mistress' excitement and enthusiasm. Mistress was also all over me, but again, O/our daughter really wouldn't allow for a moments peace. By the time we has some peace and quiet, i was frustrated and defensive. This was not my desired outcome of the evening. Mistress has planned a really hot evening and i had basically flushed it down the toilet.

i felt really bad. i was looking forward to the evening with Her and i had managed to dismantle the entire thing with insensitive comments and being closed. i know that i have a hard time tapping what i am feeling about things. The problem is that i like to gather opinions and then i derive my own. The other problem is that i hadn't given any thought to the topic at hand. So i had nothing.

i really love the way Mistress set up the whole day and the way She flirted with me on and off. i know i was cold and closed, but i am sorry for what occurred. i thankful for all She does and for having me write in this blog. i feel that i can put my feelings out in a clear an helpful way by writing here.

One of the texts W/we have been sharing back and forth has been.

i love You.

i need You.

i want You.

That will always be true for me.

What a Week!

Much has happened since i posted last Friday. The bad part has been that it hasn't been any calmer. The great news is that it has been a great week.

O/our dinner plans with Domina and anthony went great(until they has to leave ubruptly). They were so kind to make the drive to U/us and have dinner at O/our house. This is very special in that most of O/our friends(and family for that matter) will not make the drive out to see U/us and it usually means that W/we have to travel. After several glasses of wine conversation was all over the road. W/we covered everything from D/s to Disney. It has been a long time since Mistress and i have had that much fun with another couple. It was unfortunate that the evening had to be cut short due to domestic problem at home. The good news is that it looks like W/we will try to pick up where W/we left off in a couple of weeks.

Sunday was spent recouping and resting for the upcoming week. Monday ended up presenting some pleasant surprises. O/our daughter had her first Girl Scout meeting and it turned out that instead of the usual 1 hour meeting, they were extending the time to 1 1/2 hours and feeding the girls dinner. That meant that Mistress and i could have some quiet time alone. Well, it wasn't quiet. Mistress decided She wanted to play with Her two favorite toys, me and the Rimba. This time She added a finger up my ass to the Rimba and it sent me over the edge. i know She gets very turned on and wet knowing She can control Her cock with a remote control and Her finger, without even touching it. Needless to say, i came very hard with copious amounts of cum. If you haven't used one of these, you need to put it on your shopping list.

Monday's events helped to propel us through the week of work and activity. i was busy rehearsing with my chamber music ensemble all week in preparation for a concert on Thursday. That meant i was out most nights. Mistress was very supportive of me and my music. i know this is hard for Her but i am so appreciative of Her support this week.

Last night was our music ensemble's concert. This included a free dinner in which i could bring Mistress too. It turned out great and one of the highlights of the night was having Mistress sitting front row only 7 feet away the whole concert. It was a little distracting(in a good way). I tried to make eye contact throughout the performance while balancing my responsibilities of the group.

Looking back on the week, it was very busy but real good. i couldn't be more lucky to have a supportive and understanding Mistress who allows me to pursue my music. So many things have been positive in O/our lives this week. W/we both have been eating better(of course because of Mistress) and that has led to U/us both feeling better.

i just can't say how lucky i am to be loved, married, and cared for my such a wonderful Mistress.

Picture i had to share

Great picture from roflrazzi.com.

The Pen is Mightier than the Sword

At least the keyboard is.(in this case). In re-reading my post from last night and speaking with Mistress, i realized i was hurtful in some of my comments. i was not intending for that result but should have written my post when i was in a better state of mind instead of when i was upset and at work. i am familiar with the lesson of "When you are upset, write a letter, then put it away. Come back a day later and re-read the letter and make the changes. Follow this for several days and see if your feeling are a little more clear". i think that good advice that i should apply to my blog.

i definitely made it seem like i wasn't appreciative of all that Mistress does for me. On the contrary, i am extremely appreciative of all She has done. She has taken up some of my chores around the house to counteract the long hours at work. It was also very touching how She created a special moment when She put my anklets back on(of which i was very excited to have back) i was very dismayed that i had left that out last night in my post, because that was my original intention(instead of going off on a tangent).

i am also very excited of the things to come. Mistress has planned a nice get-together with Domina and anthony for the weekend, which looks to be very promising since it has been a long time since W/we have caught up with them. i am also very excited for the upcoming podcast Mistress and i have been working on putting together. W/we hope to provide folks with good information and some stimulating ideas.

So let that be a warning to everyone to learn from my mistake(or a reminder). Make sure you edit, correct, modify, and rethink before you hit send, save, or my favorite "submit".

Post Birthday Chaos and Kryptonite

As many of you have read, W/we celebrated my birthday a couple weeks ago with what i would call "Orgasmfest 2009". It's true, the best things in life ARE free!!

The wonderful weekend Mistress provided was followed by life, work, and kid changes. This has definitley caused our D/s time to take a seat on the back burner. Mistress was on Her second week of Her new job(and profession) and i was still struggling to learn the ropes and all that She did at O/our business. In order to recoup some sanity and strength, W/we decided to make a medium drive to my in-laws on the Lake. Normally. this would be relaxing, but when accompanied by four children, it can be a bit un-nerving. The kids were great but the act of loading them all up into a car and making a 3 hour drive(with dogs) can be a bit much.

Before we left for the lake, Mistress removed my anklets since i would probably be swimming in front of them in plain view. The effect is like Kryptonite to Superman. i noticed immediately the lightness of my feet and legs. i knew deep inside i felt incomplete. Sometimes it's really frustrating to have to put on these "masks" for other people.

When W/we got back, things became more hectic. O/our daughter was starting school and i was missing one of my employees for the week while She was on vacation. So things have been twice as stressful.

i know this is sounding like a "gripefest" but it is difficult to get into "sub space" with so many distractions around. i am hopeful that W/we will be able to get into a new routine and get back to that place W/we both desire to be.

Birthday Weekend

Mistress was so wonderful to plan a nice birthday weekend for me. It was a different experience for me since Mistress asked what i wanted. i was left speechless and dumbfounded. i always defer to Mistress on decisions and find it very difficult to tap into my personal feelings on what i want to do. The best i usually muster up is becoming the 'Devil's Advocate" which ends up driving Mistress batty.

With funds being tight and Mistress having planned to have O/our daughter to stay at a friends house over the weekend, W/we decided to stay home and just enjoy each other. This of course led to what sexual things i desired for my birthday weekend. Without prior thinking, planning, and stewing, i found it difficult to pinpoint something. i know most guys out there can roll off a list of kinky fantasies in a heartbeat but my mind doesn't work that way. Every time i came up with something, it was "Mistress Centric". After trying to come up with something, i came up with a challenge of how many times Mistress could get me to cum in 24hrs. Sounded like a fun and pleasurable challenge.

And it was. Mistress did something different every time. She rode me first to orgasm. Mistress stroked me to climax twice. She teased me to peak with The Hitachi Magic Wand. Lastly, She had me stroke myself to cum. i think Her cock was numb by the time it was said and done. When it was all said and done, She had made me cum 5 times. i really wish i could have given Her more or had pleasured Her more with Her cock, but i don't think She felt at all unsatisfied since She managed to squeak out 12 climaxes. Several of them shook the house and left marks on my back(yum).

i am so fortunate to have a wonderful Mistress who takes such great care of me. But now, i lookf forward to getting back to my role a the provider of pleasure for Her.

Next year, i will be sure to give it some more thought, even if it doesn't "cum" naturally.