This past weekend was rough because of my meltdown and O/our examination of O/our D/s relationship. Throughout O/our discussions, Mistress expressed disappointment that i have never shared any fantasies with Her. i am not one to fantasize. This is most likely due to the fact that i only desire for Mistress to be pleased and i feel that my fantasizing i may be "topping from the bottom". But, one did occur to me this past weekend.
In one of O/our closer moments Mistress asked me to stand by the bed and put a show on for Her while She rubbed her neglected pussy. It was at that time i realized how much i enjoy performing for Mistress. Giving Her Her own private show. It is most likely why i enjoy making those videos for Her to show that i have done the tasks She has asked of me. i am not sure if it is a fantasy or just expressing something i enjoy doing for Her, but i found it revealing and surprising that i felt this way.
Of course i was able to enjoy the show that was before me also. Nothing is hotter than watching Mistress rub HEr aching pussy while i performed for Her by stripping and rubbing Her cock for Her pleasure. It was incredibly intense and i felt a high that i only experienced when i did the same for Her on video.
So i guess my fantasy lies in desiring to perform and/or film my performance for the pleasure of Mistress. i hope that maybe Mistress may have some assignments or "requests" for me in the future.