A little BDSM for the holidays

Saw this advertisement for one of the art galleries in Washington D.C. A little kink to go with your turkey

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Oh to be Bound

In an effort to try to express myself for Mistress and share some of my fantasies(or desires) i hit upon another trigger. i really love to be bound. It doesn't have to be rope or any other particular material, but more importantly is the simple fact of being restrained. Confined so that i cannot move and i am totally at the whim of Mistress and Her desires.

Over the years W/we have explored different aspects of it. Sometimes Mistress will just bind my hands. Other times, She will go through an elaborate rope tying in which it has turned out both beautiful as well as functional.

Unfortunately, the house W/we live in doesn't allow for any type of dungeon setup. W/we have discussed putting some eye hooks in the ceiling so that i could be more easily accessed, but nothing as of yet. i have found various setups that allow you to maintain a "vanilla" house while having use of restraining equipment. One company, Foxy Furniture used to make them but due to their space constraints, allows you to download free plans to make them yourself. They have two items that "transform" from regular furniture to functional equipment. Looks like some really great ideas if you are handy with a saw and such.

Another company makes a Portable Dungeon that looks very intriguing. Definitely affordable and able to be taken down as needed.

But i digress. i very much desire to be bound. i fantasize about having Mistress tie me up to a St. Andrew's cross or from some eye hooks from the ceiling. She would then leave me there, in all my leather harnesses and ball stretcher. She would go an change into a hot leather corset with Her heels, making Her even more Dominating than usual. She would then rub Her wet pussy, getting Herself off several times because She is turned on by the display before Her. She would then periodically stroke Her cock to the point of climax and stop. Each time She stopped, She would find a new toy to pleasure Her. From time to time She would back Her hot box onto Her throbbing cock and ride it. Again, stopping before my climax. This would go on for hours. In between, She may go get food, watch television, or surf the net. While surfing, She would realize that pictures of the occasion would be appropriate so She would get the camera and capture moment forever(and share with others). Eventually, after teasing and arousing me, She would allow me to cum. But She would command that i cum far to show my desire for Her. Of course, after all the teasing, it would feel like the string on a bow and arrow pulled all the way back on the verge of release. i would come so hard that it would shoot halfway across the room. She would leave me there to wilt and recover.

Share a Fantasy

This past weekend was rough because of my meltdown and O/our examination of O/our D/s relationship. Throughout O/our discussions, Mistress expressed disappointment that i have never shared any fantasies with Her. i am not one to fantasize. This is most likely due to the fact that i only desire for Mistress to be pleased and i feel that my fantasizing i may be "topping from the bottom". But, one did occur to me this past weekend.

In one of O/our closer moments Mistress asked me to stand by the bed and put a show on for Her while She rubbed her neglected pussy. It was at that time i realized how much i enjoy performing for Mistress. Giving Her Her own private show. It is most likely why i enjoy making those videos for Her to show that i have done the tasks She has asked of me. i am not sure if it is a fantasy or just expressing something i enjoy doing for Her, but i found it revealing and surprising that i felt this way.

Of course i was able to enjoy the show that was before me also. Nothing is hotter than watching Mistress rub HEr aching pussy while i performed for Her by stripping and rubbing Her cock for Her pleasure. It was incredibly intense and i felt a high that i only experienced when i did the same for Her on video.

So i guess my fantasy lies in desiring to perform and/or film my performance for the pleasure of Mistress. i hope that maybe Mistress may have some assignments or "requests" for me in the future.

Words of Wisdom

"You are only measured by what you give."

"You can only give what you have."

These are gems of wisdom delivered by Dr. Tim Lautzenheiser at his leadership training seminars for high school band students. i have repeated it many times over the years when i was a teacher and now i am going to take my dispensed advice.

This past weekend i had a type of meltdown with my feelings of being overwhelmed at work now that Mistress is no longer there to help. This all culminated with a harsh awakening of my neglected responsibilities at home and to Mistress. The past few months have been difficult trying to adjust to the new work situation and maintaining my servitude to Mistress. i very much desire to submit to Her but at the end of the day there is "nothing left in the tank".

This is where the opening phrase comes into play. i have discovered that i cannot submit(give) to Mistress if i have given all i had all day long. Of course there are many ways to "put more in the tank"(i.e.-go to bed earlier, eat better, etc.) and both of those will be helping me to better provide for Her in the upcoming week. But adjusting and guarding my energy levels throughout the day should also allow me to be active at the end of the day.

It is really amazing how a loving, caring, and sympathetic Domme can make all the difference in the world. She made me feel so much better by listening to my problems and not making me feel bad about myself as a person because of it. For that, i am very fortunate.

So i start this week anew with vigor and a new outlook. All in effort to be a better person, business owner, father, husband, and most importantly:submissive.

She is...

She is beautiful.

She is sexy.

She is loving.

She is caring.

She is the center of my universe.

She is an incredible mother.

She is a natural teacher.

She is Dominant

She is understanding

She is funny

She is caring

She is generous

She is thoughtful

She is my Love

She is my friend

She is my Mistress

She is my Wife

She is all these things and more.

i love You.

Happy Birthday Mistress!!