Delayed Gratification

Does the old adage "Good guys finish last." really exist. If you ask any good sub that question, i guarantee the answer will always be "YES!". Mistress has taken the time and patience to teach me this since W/we ventured into our D/s relationship. She has taught me that my true and only purpose is to serve Her and without Her saying anything, i have learned that when i do a good job serving Her and making sure that Her sexual needs are taken care of, i will feel good about Her pleasure. When i am not meeting Her expectations, not only is She disappointed, but i feel less than worthy.

i love that She uses this as motivation. A "Delayed Gratification" so to speak.(for lack of a better word). If Mistress is amply pleased then She may or may not play with Her cock. if i am lucky, use me as Her fuck toy. This may not be true "delayed gratification" but more a reward for good service. This reward in not absolute. If She feels She is done with me, than that is where it is. More often, She likes to show me Her appreciation of my effort and attention. This is because i am very fortunate to have a loving and caring Mistress who takes very good care of me. i am definitely one luck sub.

If more men realized their true place in their relationships was to serve their Mistress, we would not have the amount of divorces that we have today. As i have said, nothing makes me happier than knowing that my Mistress is pleased. 

Another new milestone

This past weekend Mistress and i had some alone playtime and it seems i have reached a new milestone in my pursuit of Her pleasure. Since the time when W/we first got together, i was able to please Her TWICE with Her cock. This is a HUGE deal because i am not usually able to last long because Her incredibly hot body and luscious pussy causes me to cum in a short time.

This time, Mistress made sure this was not a problem. She bound me up and had me rub Her cock to orgasm. Afterwards, i proceeded to lick and please Her entire body. This led to Her cock becoming semi erect and She seized the moment. She rode Her cock long and hard, which is Her favorite way to use it. This time i did not cum until after she did. 

After a while close time together, Mistress decided She wanted more cock in Her pulsing pussy. i was not about to disappoint Her with my previous success in getting Her to cum. Once again, i was able to please Mistress in one of Her favorite ways, fast and hard pounding of Her wet vagina. Needless to say, i feel like this was a milestone in pleasing Her and i look forward to when i can be the capable sub She needs again.

Exciting Week ahead

Mistress and i are coming up on some unusual alone time this week. The way events have played out, O/our daughter is going to be out tonight at her first sleepover party. This will be the first time that she will be out for the night that hasn't involved planning to have someone watch her. In addition, one of O/our vendors is sending U/us to New York for a conference. It looks like W/we will be able to take advantage of the trip by stopping in the Poconos for a romantic long weekend away. 

Needless to say, i am very excited to take this time to give Mistress the very attention She needs without having to worry about O/our daughter. This week i will be able to give her my undivided attention. 

Mistress has requested that She would like to be prepared a candlelight dinner at home. It is unusual that time and family allows for this. i am getting excited just thinking of preparing to please Mistress in the way she desires to be pleased on a longer timeline. i have been thinking of what i need to do to prepare myself as to please her the most. i am planning on doing a full body shave in which i have not done in a long while. i am hopeful that this too will please Her. i can be Her little bitch shaved slave for the night. Making her dinner in the attire that she feels fit. 

Mistress has given me a recipe to work from so that i can go out and get the ingredients to prepare Her meal. i am also very excited about how i may please her all night without worrying about interruptions. i receive such joy from watching my Mistress be pleased. i can even cum watching Her orgasm, which i hope i can do for her many times tonight.

i know our time tonight will be short, but it should be an exciting prelude to our time away this week. Nothing makes me happier than pleasing Her.

Masturbation

One of the many great things Mistress has done for me is cure me of my masturbation and porn addiction. Having been married previously to someone for 6 years who was not interested in "vanilla" intercourse or any other type of sex in the least, i responded to my habit of masturbating to porn which followed me from my adolescence. 

When i met Mistress, She told me that masturbation was healthy as long as i was open with Her. That was much more difficult than it sounded. i had spent many years being taught it was bad and i should be ashamed of it. Mistress encouraged me to to not be so secretive about it but was never successful in overcoming this hurdle. i would continue to masturbate in private and keep it secret. Over time, Mistress became frustrated with me since i was still toting along this bad habit. This, of course, was all before W/we entered into O/our D/s relationship.

At first, i gave Mistress control over my orgasms through the use of a CB-3000 as a gift. This forced me to be very aware of who and when someone would touch Her cock. Relinquishing control over my orgasms was difficult but i had to undo 10+ years of this problem. W/we had ups and downs and as time went on and Mistress allowed me to not locked up in the CB-3000. i had developed some problems with chafing and irritation and coincidentally at that same time Mistress had increased her control over me.

Through the giving up of orgasms by myself and having Mistress control every time Her cock is to be touched i was able to remove the monkey from my back. i could not have done this without her. The only time i am allowed to touch Her cock is when She commands me to masturbate for Her. This pleases me also. But it pleases me that it turns Her on and makes Her feel more in control.

Now i am free of this problem. Now i am free to please Her. Instead of orgasms just being a utilitarian function that is selfish and solitary, they are something that belongs to Mistress for Her pleasure. And that, more than anything, makes me happy. To please her. To know that when I cum, it is for Her and Her only. This makes these moments so much more special and makes me want to please Her more and more. Even when we have "vanilla" sex, i still ask Her permission to cum because it is Her cock and She decides what happens to it. i am a very lucky man to have such a wonderful Mistress.