Serving my Mistress

Away, not dead.

2012-01-21T11:59:00.000-05:00

i know it's been a while since i have posted about Mistress and myself. Let's just say life has been very…..busy. W/we had that special D/s time with our guest and from then on, it has been a flurry of life changes. To sum it up, W/we have sold all O/our belongings and moved abroad.

So needless to say, there really hasn't been much time to write or for our D/s time. Having moved to a country that is very conservative has also put a squash on that aspect of O/our relationship. But after putting on the back burner, it seems that things are beginning to grow again. Not surprising though. D/s is the path you go down that you really can't undo. So it may have lied dormant all this time, but it isn't gone.

There you have it. W/we are alive. Working on firing up O/our D/s to where it should be in a part of the world that doesn't really approve of public hand holding. W/we will find a way to make it work and i will report back soon. Be on the lookout on the last part of O/our time with O/our guest. i never got to finish posting the last day. How's that for a tease?

How May i Serve You?

2011-06-09T00:08:00.000-04:00

i would like to take this opportunity to thank all of my readers over the years and the new ones who have found their way to this blog for taking time out of their busy schedules to read my thoughts and ideas on my D/s and Female Lead Marriage with Mistress. i would also like to thank my fellow Femdom bloggers for linking to me(The Path Least Chosen, Being Her Knight, Forever in Her Service, and most recently i'm Her husband and She is In Charge to name a few)and bringing new readers every week. i am thankful to be amongst some very insightful and inspiring writers. Thank you for reading and those of You who have been reading this for a while, Your loyalty.

As any good submissive, i aim to please those i serve, my readers(as well as my Mistress). So i am asking You to comment here and contribute Your thoughts on this blog. i would like to know what You liked, didn't like, loved, hated, and what You would like to hear more about. Let me know if there is anything i haven't touched upon that maybe i could expand on. By having Your thoughts and ideas here, Mistress and i can better direct O/our energies to not only explore these topics but also be helpful to You. If You are not comfortable commenting here, feel free to drop me an email or catch me on chat. i look forward to all of You input. And thanks again for reading!!

Cuckolding: A Domme's Perspective

2011-06-01T21:44:00.001-04:00

Mistress' post regarding a comment She received. It has spawned some great thoughts. Here it is:

When you write a blog, you open yourself up to comments and thoughts from others. By and large, the comments I receive are supportive and appreciative. On occasion I receive a comment that is critical. I received this comment today and felt it would make a good blog post.

The comment reads: “Sounds like that is it for your marriage unless hubby can stand your obvious desire for other men. Ask yourself this: Do you have any interest in j sexually other than as an object of your pleasure? If not, you should let him know and see how he feels. It looks to me you are confusing dominance with sexual boredom, because your guy can't "man up" in the bedroom.

Sorry if this seems harsh, but cuckoldry is playing with fire, and you might want to ask yourself (assuming you actually care for j) what he is getting out of it.

And yes, I've read the other two posts on this topic.

Clarence”

MIstress' response: “I appreciate your comment and realize it was placed after thought and out of concern for My marriage. I can assure you that cuckolding was not something either one of us entered into lightly. We had discussed the issue quite a bit at different times, and came to the conclusion it was the path for us. Read: US. Not for Me, not for him, but for Us together as a couple. j is my husband first, my submissive second. Feel free to ask him if he sees this as a problem, if he feels like he cannot satisfy me, if he prefers that things be different. I can assure you that is not the case. he has told me this, and he has written this on his own blog, Serving My Mistress.

j is not by any means a groveling on the floor type of submissive. That’s just not who he is. He can and DOES speak his mind, especially when something is bothering him. Can he satisfy me? Sure! Do I enjoy being able to tease him and taunt him, letting him know that another man is doing it for me? Absolutely! j’s ONLY deficiencies in the bedroom are that he is small (which has never been an issue for me) and that he cannot last a long time (something we have remedied quite well with numbing cream). Aside from that, he is a phenomenal lover, whether the sex is traditional, vanilla sex or full-blown, out and out raunchy D/s sex.

You are right when you say that cuckolding is a dangerous path. I agree, wholeheartedly. Then again, that could be said about many different aspects of Dominance and submission. But ultimately, the path we are taking is one we chose to take, together. I respect j’s limits, but more than that, I am cognizant of his feelings. I have never been the type of Domme that goes through life without a care in the world about the feelings of her submissive. Rather, I want him to be happy.

My blog includes time away, sometimes months at a time when D/s was not working for us for whatever reason. During these times, we generally have a more vanilla relationship, at least in the sexual sense. And who is it who comes back begging for more D/s? He does. After my submissive came and visited us for a few days, j was immediately trying to figure out how we could travel and spend more time together.

Rather than asking myself, as you suggest, what j gets out of cuckoldry, I felt it best to ask him.

Cuckolding: A sub's Perspective

2011-06-01T21:40:00.002-04:00

After Mistress received a comment on Her blog, which She addressed in "Cuckolding: A Domme's Perspective", i was asked to some of my thoughts down. Here they are:

i can imagine it can be difficult for someone who is not a submissive or has never been in a D/s relationship to truly understand and appreciate that kind of relationship. Additionally, it must be hard to understand why someone would want the person they love and cherish to be intimate with another person. i know Mistress and i have gone through these discussion in regards to other types or "factions" of BDSM. There are some types of D/s or BDSM that W/we simply do not get. i attribute this lack of appreciation to not having been in that type of relationship before or not having those kinds of feelings. When W/we first started in O/our D/s relationship, i remember reading that the members of the BDSM community were actually the most critical group of people of the lifestyle. Much more so than those outside. That every person has their turn-on and doesn't understand why somebody else has something else that triggers them. So i am going to attribute some of your concern to that.

Secondly, it is a broad generalization that intimate relationships with more than two people usually end up in disaster. This may be where you are coming from. Conversely, W/we feel that if a relationship has the essential elements needed to succeed, thrive, and grow, that anything is possible. One of the hallmarks of a D/s relationship is communication and trust. Though there are couples out there that have very strict Cuckold relationships where the man has zero control over anything, that is not O/our situation. There is constant communication, evaluation, and assessment before, during, and afterwards. Not just when W/we invite another person but in every aspect. Mistress controls the wheel. But without having a deep trust and love for Her, She wouldn't be able to have that control. And there must be trust that She has everyone's(cannot underline that word enough) best interest in mind.

Thirdly, i don't know if W/we have the standard cuckold relationship. i think W/we fall somewhere between cuckold, wittol, and swinger. As you have read, She controls the actions but W/we are both involved in the interactions. W/we share this experience together. And that is what makes it special.

Lastly, the real question:What do i get out of it? i receive incredible fulfillment from the knowledge that the person i love is having Her fantasies realized and that i can provide that for Her. Nothing turns me on more than seeing Mistress turned on. i am not forced into this. i am not a slave. i am submitting to Her desires and in turn being fulfilled by Her sexual and emotional exploration with other people.

i hope this clarifies O/our situation a little. Thanks for reading and special thanks for your input.

t's fourth day-Part II

2011-05-25T17:15:00.000-04:00

Ok…its' been too long…need to finish telling O/our story.

….t. had to suck my cock. Knowing how aroused i was he moved very slowly up and down on my member all while Mistress sat at my face kissing me and looking down on Her other sub sucking Her bitch's penis. i could tell that the sight of t. doing this was driving Her crazy. i mentioned to t. not to go too fast as i could blow at any second. Mistress was praising and instructing t. as he bobbed up and down carefully on my cock. After several times of warning that i was close, Mistress commanded t. to keep sucking and make me cum. t. followed instructions well and made me explode all in his mouth. Amazingly, he choked down the whole load.

Mistress was very happy with t.'s submission to Her and then proceeded to make out with him. She grabbed his head and started passionately kissing him. Now, Her head was spinning with passion and it seems She was not about to let the fun stop there. She has t. lay on his back while She kissed his cum stained mouth. Now, She wanted me to return the favor. Again, eager to please, i proceeded to slide my mouth on his very hard cock. i would lick it up and down and then alternate it with full penetration of my mouth. i didn't think Mistress could get any more turned on than She already was but it seems having Her full time bitch suck another man's cock was sending Her right off of the scale. She would continue to kiss him and then look down at me as i would look up at Her and we would lock eyes. i swear the temperature in the room kept getting hotter and hotter. One of Her hands was rubbing Her wet pussy during Her "real-life" gay porn and She managed to cum several times this way. Surprisingly enough, t. did not cum. Mistress then decided to take matters into Her own hands. She had me place a condom on his cock so that She could ride it for the first time. For whatever reason(nerves, too much stimuli, performance anxiety), t.'s cock went soft so W/we decided to take a break and have some dinner.

After sitting down and having dinner and watching a light-hearted movie and giving everyone time to cool down a little Mistress had me get undressed again. This time, i think She was going to rectify anything that didn't go great the first time during this visit. So Mistress had me lay down on our floor of mattresses and She got on my already hard cock again. This time, She was going to ride and show off in front of t. It was only a short time before Her wetness made me cum again. Not to be denied an orgasm, She then got on Her back and ordered t. to get naked and eat Her pussy. That indeed is a hot sight to watch the one you love get pleasured like She hasn't before. It sent me into really deep sub-space. i was then instructed to come kiss Her and suck on Her hard nipples while t.'s tongue brought Her to several orgasms. By now, t. was hard again and Mistress was going to take his cock weather he liked it or not. She had him lay on his back and i placed the condom on his stiff member. Mistress then lowered Her eager pussy on his cock while i assisted the penetration. i then sat back on the couch to watch, not trying to interfere with this special moment. Mistress was very pleased that he was plenty hard for Her and She rode him like She likes to ride me-Fast, deep, and hard. t.'s ability to stay off orgasm was impressive but i knew he would succumb to Her pussy. he got close and asked permission to release in which Mistress granted him that privilege. Then both came hard together in a flurry of pumping and thrusting. If i thought i was in sub-space before, i was really there now. The only regret being that i did not particulate in this event. But i was happy that they were able have this together at this special time.

Stay tuned for t.s last day. :-)

Gates of Hell Review

2011-04-10T22:31:00.000-04:00

i know, i am such a tease. i promise i will finish the recounting of O/our adventures with t. real soon.

Recently i was approached by EdenFantasys.com to become a reviewer. The company has a ton of adult toys and i was very flattered an felt that i should do a good job for my readers. i know i could have used some good reviews when Mistress and i were brand new to Femdom and D/s. So with much vigor, i present this review. Please note the video review for your pleasure as well.

At first glance, the package of the Gates of Hell is fairly typical of most Adult Toys. Mistress and i have purchased other cock ring type devices. This item is a mixture of O/our metal Gates of Hell and the very first rubber ring cock cage W/we purchased. i do think that metal may be a little risky for novices and that the rubber(especially ones that snap open) is a safer way to go until you become comfortable with putting it on and taking it off.

The package contained the leather strap and three rubber "O" rings. The rings are 1 1/2 inches, 2 inches, and 2 1/2 inches. Putting the rings on the strap was very easy. In contrast to our previously owned one, they just slip on and the strap snaps around them. O/our metal one comes with the metal rings already secured. Putting the strap on around the base on my cock was very easy. As a matter of fact, it seemed it was easier than a similar leather cock strap W/we have. i do not have a long cock but have very large balls. This is problematic with some CBT devices.

Overall, i really liked the device. The only concern i had was the size increments of the rings included. i cannot see someone really needing a ring 1/2 inch larger for the second ring. Then again, it may just act as a support ring for the base of the cock. The small ring that sat behind the head of my penis fit well and snug so you would not be flopping around in it.

This would be a good device for anyone wanting to try CBT for the first time. It wasn't particularly hard to get in and out of and it seemed easy to maintain, clean, and assemble. If you were really worried, you could go with this Cock Cage first. If neither of these met your needs, i am sure you could find other cock toys to go with.

A good start in CBT. Thank you to Edenfantasys.com for the product.

Formspring me:DO YOU HAVE CUCKOLD PICTURES?

2011-03-22T20:31:00.002-04:00

I assume you are asking of the events described in the most recent posts. Sadly, no pictures of the fun activities that went on those 5 days were taken. In retrospect, W/we wish W/we had taken some, but considering this was a brand new experience and W/we didn't know what to expect, it became a very low priority. Hopefully next time. :-)

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t's fourth day-Part I

2011-03-18T19:13:00.001-04:00

The fourth day turned out to be the main event. With two days behind us and a good night's rest, i think W/we were in for some new experiences. W/we lounged around most of the morning after having a breakfast i made for everyone finished up. Mistress went to go take a shower and i went and joined Her to discuss some of Her ideas and thoughts in shower. At first, Mistress felt that the activity that has occurred was great and that if W/we did nothing else, She would feel good. After talking some more, She was getting hornier and hornier. i think She was unaware how open i was to pleasing Her and making Her fantasies come true.

So it all started with a round of "Strip Rock Band". Mistress loves Rock band and wanted to see some competition amongst Her subs. The deal was that whoever scored lowest on a song would have to remove an item of clothing. If Mistress was the lowest, than She would get to choose. If it was a tie, Mistress would choose. So basically, play your best but ultimately Mistress would choose. To hint at what was to come the rest of the weekend, we put the two queen sized mattresses on the living room floor so that W/we would have a extra large play/sleep area big enough for everyone.

The games then began. i lost the first song, leading to me taking off my shirt. As a reward, Mistress then made out with t. t. lost the second song leading to the loss of his shirt and an additional penalty of humiliation-he had to suck my nipples. Next to go was my belt. This time Mistress decided She wanted to make out with me.(Remember She makes the rules). The third song was a tie and and She made both of us remove an item(his belt and my pants, leaving me in a purple things. t. had to suck my nipples again as a yummy replay for Mistress.

By now Mistress was getting very turned on and i could tell She was ready to start raising up the ante. i lost another song leaving me to remove my purple thong and completely naked. i knew that soon the game wasn't going to matter and it was going to be a Mistress directed bi-live-action-porn. t. lost the next song. This time was a double whammy. Not only was t. going to have remove another item but.....

t's third day

2011-03-14T22:42:00.000-04:00

The third day was not as exciting as the second but more about connecting than anything else. W/we spent the day together showing s. the area and just hanging out. By the evening time W/we went to dinner and got pizza. When W/we cam back, things went from vanilla to D/s in 5th gear. i went outside to walk the dogs and go to the bathroom to come back and fins Mistress and t. curled up on the couch. She was sitting up and he was kneeling in front of Her with nothing other than panties. i was instructed to take my clothes off up to my panties and sit on the love seat and watch. Wow! Front row seat to seeing my Mistress get it on. She would press Her eager face against his and casually sneak Her hand onto his hard cock over his panties and stroke. It was so hot. i never realized how much i enjoyed watching Her be pleasured. i naturally wanted to join in but was not invited. After a little while, She gestured to have me take his place and have him stand aside. After planting a hot & wet kiss on Her She pulled my ear close to Her mouth and whispered something that made my heart skip a beat.

"i want to fuck him!", She said.

"Do You want to feel his cock inside of You?", i asked

"YESS!!", she whispered with intensity.

"You have my blessing. i want You to fuck him and take him like Your fantasies"

Well, that about put Her over the edge right there. W/we kissed and then She decided it was time to cool things off for a bit. W/we all watched a movie together and She was feeling tired. Considering the past two nights had been lacking sleep, it was good W/we all just went to bed to rest up for some intense play.

Femdom in the Mainstream III

2011-03-12T11:18:00.002-05:00

If you have been living under a rock lately or just have missed this, i figured i should share. i know this isn't a "true" Femdom Video, but it is yet another step of D/s, BDSM, and Femdom moving into the mainstream culture.

Enjoy.

t's Second Day-Part II

2011-03-08T23:15:00.001-05:00

...Continued from before.

"Going slow" ended up being Mistress in the middle while t. and i massaged Her body, fondled & kissed Her breasts, and i rubbed Her inner thigh. Mistress came pretty son afterwards, after which She proclaimed that vanilla time was over. She delved into Her cabinet of toys and brought out Her cuffs, rope, and a blindfold. She cuffed t. up, blindfolded him and attached his arms to the bedpost. In the first act of humiliation, Mistress had me take off his panties. Out sprung his erect cock all ready for action. Mistress then fondled his cock and his very large testicles. She wanted me to understand the magnitude of the size so She had me handle them also.

Next, Mistress tied up his cock with rope in a pseudo harness. Pleased with Her accomplishment, She went down on his eager member. After a bit of tease and denial, She mouthed to me to touch His cock. Without hesitation, i grabbed the first cock that wasn't not my own. It definitely felt softer than what i expected even though he was hard the only other comparison i had was artificial dildos and such. W/we went back and forth between me stoking his cock, Her stroking his cock, and Her sucking on it. Then She motioned to have me suck it. Again, in an act of obedience i went down on His hard cock. i had no sexual feelings about it other than the moaning Mistress was making from watching one of Her top fantasies come true before Her eyes. She would have me continue to suck on while She would finger Herself to orgasm.(several times).

Now that She was thoroughly turned on, She got on Her back next to him and had me lick Her very wet pussy. i loved that taste. So Mistress would have me lick Her pussy to orgasm and then switch to t.'s cock(while he was tied up and blindfolded) and back and forth. Each time She would cum harder and harder. After about 20 minutes of this, She decided to fulfill one of his fantasies by having sex with me in front of him. The only problem is that the medicine She gave me not only allowed me to function longer, it also kept me from getting hard.(that in conjunction with the 3 glasses of wine). She managed to get me hard enough to ride me and slipped me in. Immediately, She let out a big moan which caused me to cum right then and there without warning. i was very sad about it and the orgasm was very poor.

Determined to still climax again, Mistress then brought the third man in, Mr. Hitachi. She would use Mr. Hitachi next to t. and alternate in pulling his chest hair and his nipples. Once again She came hard. By now, the effects of the pills were in full swing and i was having trouble keeping my balance and started to act silly. i am sure this put a damper on the moment between Mistress and s. but they didn't seem to allow it to effect them.

It was a very hot first night. i wish i could have done more for Mistress that evening but i am happy i fulfilled two of Her fantasies. Here is looking forward to the next night.

t's Second Day-Part I

2011-03-06T12:45:00.000-05:00

It definitely seems that the first night was a warm up of what was about to come(cum?). Unfortunately for me, i had to spend a long day at work that day and felt very disconnected to the events going on at home. Mistress was able to take a 1/2 of a day off of work to be with t. and spend some quality time, but i would not be able to return until 8pm that night. my online chats with Mistress and t were sporadic throughout the day but not as frequent as a typical day with the two of U/us. Of course my mind was racing with ideas spawned from the night before. Were they just hanging out? Was She taking him to the next level already, taking advantage of Her time alone with him? i just didn't know. Of course, all of my mind games were playing tricks on me as it turned out Mistress and t had a nice day together connecting and talking(a little groping) She later confessed to me that She was restraining Herself from fucking him right then and there. That got me excited and all bothered at once. So as soon as i could leave work, i hurried home.

When i arrived i was assigned the job of making dinner for everyone. After dinner, since it was late, W/we put O/our daughter to bed and Mistress and i took a shower to discuss the nights events and clean up. Mistress was very interested in him touching my cock and me touching his. She also wanted to fulfill his fantasies of having him tied up while Mistress and i make love in front of him. So having discussed the evening, She went to get him ready while i prepped the room and took a pill of Hers that She thought would make me last longer. More on that later.

After She brought t. in i went and walked the dogs to give them some warm-up time. When i came back in, the two were in an embrace. Mistress then told me that W/we would be "going slow" since t. was a little nervous.

To be continued.....

A View From The Other Side

2011-03-03T19:45:00.004-05:00

As i continue to relay the events of O/our very hot time with Mistress' visiting sub i would like to direct you to Mistress' blog, Sensual Femdom, where She is sharing Her side of the events that took place those several days. Also, if you are lucky, She may be online and available for a chat. i just installed a Pingbox widget on the side of Her blog so She can be more easily available.

Enjoy!!

ts' first day-Part 2

2011-03-02T00:15:00.000-05:00

The evening went very well as W/we drank a bit and got a little more comfortable with each other. i sat on the floor while t. sat on the couch next to Mistress. i would massage Her feet while W/we talked and Mistress would periodically come up with distractions so they could make out in short passionate bursts. Again, a whirlwind of thoughts and feelings, but most of all excitement to watch Mistress be pleasured. This went on for a while and Mistress would make sure i didn't feel left out by coming over to me and passionately kissing me also in front of t. This was hot too.

As the evening wore on, Mistress decided to change into Her bedtime outfit. When She came back from the bedroom out to the living room, i think You could here both of our jaws hit the floor She was wearing an all black outfit. It was made up of black slinky pants with a open front black blouse in which She had one of Her stunning bra's underneath showing off Her beautiful breasts. W/we went back to chit chat, taking turns making out, and such and decided it was time to hit the bed.

Mistress commanded t. and i to remove all of our clothes so that we would be naked for Her in bed. Things were not necessarily moving towards more groping but after W/we all decided to go to sleep, t. leaned over and started making out with Mistress again. i decided that i wanted to please Her also so i rubbed Her back, shoulders, lower back, and ass. When i was rubbing Her ass, She would spread Her legs so that i may rub Her inner thigh and pussy. i could hear Her moaning in between kissing and slurping on t. Her moaning made me so hard and excited. Mistress was truly being served by two subs at once. In one of the breaks of the kissing, i stopped rubbing Her mound and She asked why i stopped. Not about to let Her down, i went right back to pleasuring Her. Her moans grew stronger and stronger, as She processed the fact that She had one man embracing Her and kissing Her while another was bringing Her to orgasm. Mistress came hard. It was different and more passionate than i had heard before. i know the excitement of two men in bed with Her really put Her over the edge and i made me even more eager to please Her.

Afterwards, W/we all laid back in O/our spots on the bed and touched and fondled each other until W/we fell asleep. i had a difficult time sleeping after all the excitement and wondered in and out of it throughout the night. i was always being aware of any stirring from Mistress or t.

So what an exciting first night. i can't even imagine what W/we are going to experience the rest of the weekend.

t's first day-Part 1

2011-02-20T12:45:00.001-05:00

t's visit came a day early this week. Instead of him driving all day, his plan changed and he was to arrive early by plane. That meant one less day to prepare the house and emotionally prepare for his arrival. i ended up taking a half day off of work to go home and prepare the house as best i could. Mistress would join me later that afternoon to help and get ready to go to the airport and pick him up.

One of the discussions we had was the fact that s's wanted to sleep in the same bed as Mistress. i wasn't very keen on it as i did not want to be left out in the cold. Instead we came up with a compromise to move O/our bed over and bring an additional twin bed next to O/our. i felt like it was a great compromise considering the other option was to have either t. or myself sleeping in a separate room by ourselves.

Mistress was very nervous heading out to the airport. She was worried that maybe the two of them would not hit it off as well as they had over the past year online. That was quickly put to rest when W/we pulled up. The two of them immediately went to a long embrace and held hands while gently caressing the entire ride home. The conversation remained very vanilla as W/we had our daughter in the car and really couldn't speak openly. i could tell that Mistress and t. were warming up the longer the car ride continued.

t. Is a great guy and i couldn't be happier for Mistress that She finally gets the opportunity to meet him in person. i was not totally where they were when W/we all got home. O/our daughter went to the bathroom immediately and i came in to find t. and Mistress in a passionate kiss. i had such a whirlwind of feelings and thoughts at once. The reality of the fact that he was really here was a lot to swallow. Part of me felt jealous because i wasn't the one being passionately kissed. Part of me was a little embarrassed and felt like i needed to go and let them have their moment aline. The last part of me felt turned on seeing Mistress so worked up and pleasures. After letting my emotions fight it out amongst each other, the latter came out the winner. i was totally turned on watching my Mistress be pleasured by another man. it made me so happy and turned on all at the same time. i decided to stop staring and take care of O/our daughter as i the image remained burned into my brain.

More Thoughts on t's arrival

2011-02-13T23:00:00.000-05:00

t's arrival is only a few days away at this point and things are starting to heat up around the house. Mistress is sharing Her desires and fantasies and in an unexpected surprise, t expressed his fantasies also. Much to the pleasant surprise of Mistress and i, they all include me in some form or fashion. i will outline them below.

1-t desires to be tied up while Mistress and i make love in front of him.

-i have always thought that a scene in which Mistress and i could be exhibitionists would be incredibly hot. i love serving Her and would like even more to do it in front of another person. To be able to show my servitude to Her in the presence of another person would be a turn on. Especially knowing that t probably would love the opportunity to fuck Mistress if given then chance. This is one i am fairly sure Mistress would like to fulfill for O/our visitor. Oh yes, i forgot one important part, he wants to clean up afterwards. It sounds like t is really into humiliation. i am thinking maybe Mistress may want to do it a second time in reverse. It should be interesting

2.-t desires to be force to suck my cock

i have already told Mistress that i was willing to serve Her by fulfilling Her fantasy of a force-bi situation. Weather that be sucking a cock, being sucked, fucking him, or being fucked. It is not necessarily something i would pursue myself but would enjoy providing for the pleasure of Mistress. For what it is worth, i have already been well trained to suck cock by being forced to suck Mistress'

3-t desires to be tied up to me as W/we are both tortured.

Again, i think t has the right idea. i know Mistress would really enjoy this. She has never had a chance to have two subs at the same time to torture and tease. i can see Her having a real good time with this one.

So it is shaping up to be a interesting visit. i am looking forward to all the new experiences Mistress has in mind by bringing another man into the picture.

Formspring me:Have you ever played with another person in a sexual context? Any desires for a cuckolding relationship?

2011-02-06T11:09:00.003-05:00

Stay Tuned Here to find out.

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Two subs, one Domme

2011-02-04T20:30:00.000-05:00

Mistress has been courting several subs online over the past year or so. Some have come and gone but one has remained consistent throughout the entire process. He lives quiet a ways away so i never felt any threat of him. That is, until now.

i will call him t for simplicity. Well t is the type of sub Mistress desired from the standpoint he is easily embarrassed and and enjoys being humiliated. So She has been able to do this very effectively over the internet through chat, phone, and webcam. m has managed to arrange a visit to O/our home in a couple of weeks. Because i know Mistress really values t as a friend and someone else to talk to, i am excited for his visit. He and i have chatted several times and i think he and i will hit it off. On the other end, i know he desires to have some play time with Mistress. That initially does not scare me but he also desires to sleep in the same bed with Her. For me, as Her husband, feels like a step too far. i know that sounds funny considering i am very good with some serious play time with him(and maybe me at the same time), but ultimately W/we are married and playing is kind of a separate box for me.

i know Mistress wants to play too. She has expressed an interest in letting the play go to "2nd base" in the sessions. i am good with that and even moderately excited with the possibility of playing with another person. On other occasions, Mistress has eluded to wanting me to be cuckolded and have to watch Her get fucked by t. In fantasy i feel like it would be really hot. In reality, i do not know how i would feel afterwards. The desire to please Mistress once again rises to the top of the list when i consider the idea of Her getting the fucking She desires. So that makes me happy and also turns me on, knowing Mistress would be pleasured. But sharing Mistress with another man may be too much for my little bitch self to deal with.

Did i mention She also likes the idea of forced bi? i feel like i could deal with taking a cock orally or in my ass for Mistress' pleasure would be more deal able than watching/knowing Mistress getting fucked by another man.

Right now i am very clouded with stress, horniness, excitement, and anxiety. Thats a lot of feelings for one sub to comprehend.

D/s dining revisited

2011-01-24T21:27:00.006-05:00

It was great to get together again with Domina and anthony again. This time they were nice enough to invite U/us to Domina's house. Domina made a wonderful meal for U/us all and W/we all enjoyed many bottles of wine. W/we all spent a good part of the evening sharing O/our holiday family mishaps. Somewhere in the evening, talking, sharing, and drinking, anthony managed to break the bottle opener and had to run out to the store.

It seemed that anthony wasn't feeling 100% (or didn't drink enough, lol) because he remained fairly quiet most of the evening with the exception of a few well timed humorous comments. One of the more memorable was when he returned from retrieving a bottle opener that "he was surprised that some of us(anthony and myself) were still dressed". i get a kick out of his one liners out of nowhere. i am sure that some of Mistress' and i sharing of some of O/our recent new experiences had him hot and bothered enough to chime in.

It was a really nice evening as usual that allows Mistress and myself to share O/our thoughts and feelings about anything with two people that W/we have grown very fond of. i guess now that they are "in the know", it will be time to share with all of you.

Keep posted. ;-)

D/s Dinner

2011-01-14T20:43:00.003-05:00

Mistress and i am very excited to get together with O/our favorite D/s couple. The last time W/we saw them was before the holidays and W/we caused quite a stir at the restaurant W/we met at. After several glasses of wine, O/our conversation became fairly clear for anyone within a table of U/us. After some time, one stranger actually turned his chair so he could hear better. By that time, nothing was being censored and i am sure he was shocked what came from O/our table in the middle of a mild family restaurant. i would have loved to be a fly on the wall on his car ride home as he and his date discussed what they heard.

Well, this time W/we are meeting at Domina's house so W/we won't have to be so cryptic about O/our discussions. i expect another great time with Domina and anthony as W/we share each other's company and stories. And for those of you wanting to know what happened over the holidays, you will have to wait until after the weekend. Domina and anthony have first dibs on the juicy stories.

2011:A New Year, new experiences

2011-01-11T14:21:00.003-05:00

2011 is here and underway and i am excited for some changes that may take place. Mistress and i went through a rough period last fall to come out the other side a better couple for it. This leaves me excited for some new experiences and opportunities to come(cum? probably not for me).

i do have some hot things to write about that occurred over the holidays and look forward to sharing them with you. Those experiences have definitely changed O/our relationship and have made it stronger. Though there was a bit of a D/s slump after the high, i am optimistic for the future.

So, 2011 looks to be a great year and i look forward to keeping you posted on O/our New Year!

Cheers!!

Formspring Me:How many times can miss orgasm in an hour?

2010-12-17T16:45:00.002-05:00

Mistress and i have not ever taken time to count the amount of orgasms in an hour. i do recall in a hot session She climaxed 8-10 times.

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Another Taste of Mistress

2010-11-06T16:55:00.006-04:00

Last weekend Mistress allowed me to give Her another one of my full body massages. Even though She wasn't in a particularly sexual mood, it did lead to some intimate time and another opportunity to pleasure Her.

As it does most times, i started with a good long back rub. As i worked down Her back i rubbed and worked out the kinks in Mistress' lover thighs and legs. Of course Mistress was not going to let me forget to massage Her beautiful butt cheeks. After kneading and working the stress out of Her posterior muscles, i was instructed to massage Her inner thighs. Knowing where i was going to be near was all i needed for Her cock to get hard. In the process of massaging the insides of Her legs, i would brush up against Her lips and outer area around Her pussy. It wasn't long before Mistress was moaning and writing around to get Her hips up higher so that i could pleasure Her more effectively. My mouth was watering with the possibility of tasting Her. So after a little bit of manual stimulation, i put my eager tongue on Her protruding anus. This got a positive reaction which encouraged me to delve in more vigorously and more passion. While i was giving oral to Her ass She had me grab Her Hitachi Magic wand that She placed up against Her wetness. Before long She decided it was time for Her to flip over and have me finger Her ass while She continued the use of Her vibrator. Between Her help and myself, W/we were able to stimulate Her clit with the wand while i had one finger in Her ass and another in Her pussy. Triple Stimulation!! i particularly tried to massage the shared wall between the pussy and anus by rubbing back and forth. Mistress came hard not long afterwards.

Mistress then reminded me that i had not massaged Her front yet. Being eager to please, i got out the cocoa butter and massaged Her front, breasts, stomach and front thighs while She went for round two with Mr. Hitachi. Between the breast massage and the vibrator it wasn't long before She came again. i was a happy and hard sub.

Mistress then asked me if i wanted to cum. My answer was "No, i just want to please You" At first She didn't believe me, but it was what i really desired. Of course i "wanted" to cum but the desire to pleasure Her was much higher on my list and i felt very satisfied knowing that i pleased Her. What i didn't want was for Mistress to have me cum just to have the release. i want to cum only when Mistress wants or desires to make me do that. i think that is the most true "sub space" i have experienced lately. So i was excused to leave with a hard on and a smile on my face due to a job well done.

D/s for Dummies

2010-10-26T19:33:00.003-04:00

i stumbled upon an article that Thumper wrote in his blog Denying Thumper about explaining D/s and the different layers of the nuances of the D/s relationship. Not only was his article informative, but the other blog post he referred to is even better.

Both Thumper and the other writer not only clarify how D/s fits into a day-to-day life, but also is informative to the non-D/s community. You could send somebody who does not understand the dynamics of this type of lifestyle and i would feel that they would come away with a better understanding. Please go and read both articles since i do not even to attempt to try to do justice to the subject matter.

Formspring Me:Do you have any advice from a subby man to a woman who is new to being a Domme?

2010-10-13T18:18:00.003-04:00

As a sub, i don't really think it is my place to be telling a soon to be Domme what to do. i really think your question would be better sent to my Mistress at Sensual Femdom.

But since you asked, i will give it my best shot.

i am assuming i am directing this to a woman. i would recommend first of all reading as many different male sub and Femdom blogs. No one couple has it right. Every situation is different, so You will have to pick piece from each blog to apply to Yourself.

Secondly, i would make sure there is a open line of communication. D/s is not for people who cannot communicate well. Make sure You know his limits and he knows Yours. Everything needs to be out in the open before You start down this road. Don't get frustrated if some of his limits are things You like. This will change and grow in time. There were things on my hard limits years ago that are on the "like" list. You just don't know.

Lastly, You need to decide together if this is just for play or the "real deal" Many of the bloggers i follow live the "real deal" as much 24/7 as possible. In those cases, it is so much more than what is going on in the bedroom. It is true submission and Domination.

It is a great lifestyle. Not for everyone. But i think more couples would be happier if they would just accept this dynamic in their existing vanilla relationship/

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Beautiful Femdom Art

2010-10-11T20:53:00.001-04:00

i saw this art from another Femdom Site, Femdom Artist. i find the artist work stunning. Check out Francois Dubeau and his other beautiful work.

As seen at the State Fair-Crop Girl

2010-10-09T20:22:00.003-04:00

On O/our date at the Fair, W/we saw this license plate and had a good laugh. Maybe the horse thing is just a cover for reality. wink wink.

Homecumming

2010-10-03T21:27:00.003-04:00

Mistress and i have been working through some tough issues that have been around for a majority of O/our marriage. In an effort to gain some perspective and get some time to think, Mistress went up to the city and rented a hotel room for the weekend. She was kind enough to allow me to come up to the city and take Her on a date like W/we used to do. It was so exciting getting ready with a new sense of vigor and energy. Something about going back to dating is very good in sparking that, well spark, that may have become dim over the years. It also reminds U/us why W/we got married in the first place. Anyway, Mistress, daughter, and i enjoyed a wonderful day together going out to a fair and spending quality time together. The only thing hanging over the whole event is why it took so long to happen.

After some discussion, i headed back home by myself and spent the evening and the next day by myself. When Mistress came home on Sunday, my heart was beating fast like a schoolgirl out on a first date. i was so excited to see Her and have Her home again. This was particularly exciting because W/we do not spent any extended time away from each other and, at least for me, made me grow even fonder of Her upon Her return.

She was very tired when She arrived and was a bit achy from the driving all weekend so i offered to massage Her. Well, that turned into a full body massage with cocoa butter and the Hitachi Magic Wand. Mistress was almost asleep until She flipped over on Her back and wanted me to do the same for Her front. What a wonderful treat it was to use the magic wand and my hands to massage every part of Her body. Of course i teased Her sensitive areas in which She responded with small moans of pleasure. i took that as a good thing and continued to tease Her mound and Her breasts. This lasted a prolonged time until She came hard and She turned over and went right to sleep.

W/we may be working through O/our problems, but at least i know i know how to pleasure Mistress and get Her to relax enough to go right to sleep.

As seen by Mistress

2010-09-28T22:30:00.003-04:00

Mistress spotted this pic and it made me laugh. i thought i would share

Phone Orgasm

2010-09-26T13:21:00.004-04:00

Yesterday was a great day. Mistress and i had made arrangements to meet friends to see Bruce Hornsby in concert which i was excited for. But the added bonus was that it led to Mistress getting dressed up in some new outfits She bought. She looked stunning! Mistress exuded sexiness as never before. The more Dominant She becomes, the hotter She gets. i am a lucky sub.

Another highlight of the day happened before W/we left. W/we had both taken advantage of being completely naked since O/our daughter was away staying at my mother-in-law's . W/we were both surfing online when my mother called to ask me some questions about her upcoming trip overseas. Mistress decided it would be fun to see Her little bitch squirm while i was on the phone, so She started to stroke Her cock. At first, it was unsuccessful since i was having a hard time getting it up with my mother on the phone. Undeterred, She stroked more vigorously to achieve the desired result. Sure enough, She had Her bitch's cock all hard and ready to go. Several times i got close to cumming and tried to pull away since i did not have permission to release. She was not interested in that, She wanted me to cum and keep up a conversation at the same time.

Well, it didn't take look before i got very close and i gestured to Her to ask permission and She nodded 'Yes'. i came hard but struggled to maintain a level speaking voice and remain focused enough to keep up my part of the conversation.

This was a new type of Domination from Mistress. i know She enjoys making Her subs squirm, but this was an interesting and hot challenge. Ultimately, like most subs, i am putty in my Mistress' hands. Nothing but Her little puppet to do with as She wishes. And i wouldn't have it any other way.

The Sweet Taste of Her Nectar

2010-09-20T18:19:00.004-04:00

picture from http://dishevelleddomina.tumblr.com/

You may have read lately that Mistress is getting back to Her old self, which in turn makes me more submissive. It is definitely a symbiotic relationship, as i imagine it is for most in a D/s relationship.

Mistress spent a good part of the weekend commanding servicing of Her pussy and multiple orgasms. As always, i am eager to serve and very excited about Mistress' re-surging sexuality. One of the highlights of the weekend came when She had me lick Her pussy. i think my heart skipped a beat since it had been so long since She had allowed me to taste Her juices. Just the thought of it makes my cock hard. i have been longing to lick Her to orgasm for a long time but life has been in the way and had not lent to Her wanting my services. This weekend was different and i was a happy sub to serve.

Between using Her favorite vibrator on Her eager pussy and licking Her clit, i managed to please Her several times. What i wasn't expecting was for Her to bring out Her favorite toy, the E-stim cock band. If you are not familiar with any of the electro-sex toys, You may want to introduce Your Mistress to them.

After trying several times to get it on, Mistress took over and strapped me up. After getting all the straps in place and putting the special gel lube on, She was on Her way. She was manipulating me and Her cock with each turn and tweak of the dial. The ultimate control toy. Like remote control sub. Only this time, She has a remote to your cock. i know She gets off on watching me squirm with it. Unlike sucking or stroking, She can edge up the intensity in very small increments and control my pain(or pleasure).

She didn't tease for long, probably because She knew it had been a long time and i was already bursting at the seams. When She did, it was an amazing orgasm. It must have lasted for 30-50 seconds of constant release. I groaned for the entire time of the orgasm and could not believe how amazing She was. Afterwards, i could tell how pleased She was and that the night's events were still bouncing around in Her head, so i was to assist with several more of Her orgasms before turning in for the night.

So between the taste of Her delicious pussy on my face and mouth and the amazing climax Mistress allowed me, i consider myself a lucky sub and excited for the way things seem to be turning around in O/our D/s life.

Formspring me:Do you ever feel ashamed of your submissiveness?

2010-09-11T15:38:00.002-04:00

Formspring Question:Do you ever feel ashamed of your submissiveness? The reason i ask is i am a submissive seeking a Dominant Woman and sometimes ( especially after orgasm) i have these feelings of shame springing im sure from the societal norm of the strong male figure.

i am actually proud of my submissiveness. i occasionally drop hints in my "vanilla life" that Mistress in charge. i really wish i could be even more open about it, but that won't happen any time soon. Frequently when i bring it up(of course in a very vanilla context), i usually sense a feeling of jealousy from any women i am around that their partner was not that way.

On the other hand, after orgasm i do feel ashamed if Mistress has not cum or been pleasured. i do feel very lucky that She will allow me to release on occasion and that She enjoys it(and it's Her will). But at the same time, i feel that my release should come last and i am ashamed that i am not able to please Her longer with Her cock.

i hope i answered Your question.

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FORUMS!! Discuss!

2010-09-06T13:15:00.001-04:00

i was inspired by a couple of other blogs who have added forums to their blog. Please note the link to the right to my new Forums page. Join, read, write, discuss.

Getting back in the saddle

2010-09-06T12:25:00.004-04:00

This weekend was a significant day in that Mistress was feeling Dominant and sexual after a long dry spell. She woke me up with the stroking of Her cock and a quick(very quick) ride on it. Having gone a long while without release has lead to an even more sensitive trigger on Her cock. i know it wasn't satisfying for Her but it was a good sign that things were looking up from this summer.

The following day Mistress had taken the opportunity several times to masturbate to orgasm. She even included me in the process for a third one. As an added treat, She allowed me to shave Her pussy clean. I was very turned on, not only by being able to touch it but the possibility of more chances to pleasure Her. Her shaving inspired me to shave my body after a long hiatus.

It's all baby steps, but at least it movement in a forward direction.

formpring me: slap my face

2010-09-03T23:50:00.002-04:00

Is this a question or request? i think You may be asking the wrong person. The correct person to ask would be Mistress. As a matter of fact, She would most likely be happy to oblige and proceed with more extreme beatings.

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Not Dead Yet!

2010-08-17T14:45:00.003-04:00

It has been a while since i have posted. The last time i commented i was excited for a full week of childless time with Mistress. i am sad to say it did not end up being much of anything super exciting. Mistress and i enjoyed time together without being interrupted and being able to come and go as W/we wanted but not much beyond that.

You see, this summer has been very difficult for O/our D/s life due to the stress of me trying to find a full time job. This has been a process since March and has carried over through the entire summer. i am pleased to let you know that i just managed to get a full time job, but the relief of that stress brings upon new stress of trying to find a new place to move to so the drive will not be so bad. These are all good things but have definitely taken the wind out of O/our D/s relationship.

i hope to report back to you soon with more exiting updates and thoughts. It looks like W/we have been able to lock down on a house(sadly no basement for a dungeon).

Keep hanging with U/us. Like every relationship, it ebbs and flows.

Formspring:if I want a spanking what do I do

2010-08-08T15:24:00.002-04:00

Are you asking what you would need to do to get a spanking from my Mistress? Most likely anything disrespectful or belligerent could get you a good ass beating. As far as getting a spanking in general, i am not sure. It really depends on your Mistress and Her temperament.

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Formspring: Has your wife/mistress ever had you stand in the corner for punishment?

2010-08-08T15:22:00.002-04:00

Not at of yet. Mistress as not used that as a form of punishment. i am sure it is mainly due to the fact that W/we have children around and there really isn't a proper opportunity for Her to place me there as She would like.

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True 24/7 for a week!!

2010-07-03T14:30:00.001-04:00

Tomorrow evening, Mistress and i drop off O/our child at camp for the week. That is sleep away camp!!! Needless to say, i am very excited to spend true extended 24/7 D/s time with Mistress. i am already seeing sparks of it throughout this week as She would say something or smile in that sexy evil way.

i have no idea what She has in mind for U/us but i am excited to serve. i am excited that there will not be any interruptions to O/our day(as She doesn't work in the summer and i do not have a job yet). This will be the first time there will have been such an extended time together. In the past W/we have had a day or two, but never a whole week. i already know She plans on keeping me naked(or at least close to it). i can assume that servicing will be regular and constant. i am sure to have a workout this week(if i am allowed).

There are so many possibilities. W/we have discussed finally recording O/our first podcast on Femdom. i am also sure i will be posting a bunch this week as the week progresses. Who knows, maybe even a couple of videos. So W/we will see. Either way, it's exciting.

i am sure Her long term goal is that is bleeds over into O/our life even when O/our daughter comes back. i desire that too, as life's events have a tendency to get in the way and interrupt O/our D/s flow.

So stay tuned, it looks to be a exciting week.

Even Futurama is getting in on it

2010-06-28T20:13:00.002-04:00

i about choked on my dinner when i saw the return of Futurama after 7 years. i thought i would share. Wait for it at the very end of the clip.

Futurama

Thursdays 10pm / 9c

Censoring Indecent Planets

www.comedycentral.com

Futurama New Episodes

Ugly Americans

Formspring-But do you WANT to be disciplined in front of others?

2010-06-26T10:06:00.003-04:00

i do have a fantasy of serving Mistress and "being myself" in front of other folks of like mind. i do not desire or enjoy public humiliation in the vanilla world. It becomes problematic with O/our jobs and the people that W/we are involved with in O/our vanilla life to do something like that. But thoughts of playing and serving outside to comfort of O/our bedroom and home is definitely on the fantasy list.

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Formspring-Have you ever been disciplined in front of others?

2010-06-25T18:00:00.003-04:00

i have not. i am sure there have been many times that Mistress has expressed Her disapproval of something in public, but never disciplined....yet.

**Update-Mistress has reminded me of different times at O/our business when She would slap my face or pinch my nipples. This usually happened in front of O/our employees(who were kind of in on it). She also has verbally disciplined me in public at times also. As far as "in a play setting", not yet. W/we have not found folks that W/we feel comfortable with to play with at this time.

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W/we won a prize!!

2010-06-21T08:00:00.003-04:00

This is truly exciting!! i usually do not win anything. Mistress usually is the winner of many contests and prizes. i cannot take complete credit for the award becuase even though it is my blog, it would not exist without Mistress and Her insight and direction. For that, i am forever grateful.

So it seems we have been put on the "Best of" list on sexforums.com. It is great that the blog has been noticed and i hope it will ultimately bring more folks to the site and increase the level of dialog going on. i can't help but be inspired to put some more time and work into it now that it has gotten some attention. Fortunately, i have some time coming up with summer break and a week of "no kids" with Mistress and i at home 24/7. So that should lead to some good posts and juicy stories. i have already stated working on some other posts leading up to it, so stay tuned. Maybe, if time allows, Mistress and i will be able to put out O/our first podcast. W/we will see.

None the less, i am honored to be among some of the other blogs featured on that list. Good ol' Obasso's HNT and View from the Back Row, Gloria Brame, Mystress Lady Evyl, and not to mention sex writer/educator superstar, Violet Blue. To be on the same list as Violet Blue is really an honor. i am not sure if i am honored or if She would be disappointed, LOL. Check these sites out. There are some that are new to me, but they all look really good.

Thanks again. BTW-Keep sending the questions.!!

Summer Project?

2010-06-19T15:46:00.010-04:00

Now that there is time for some "honey-do's"(more like "do-it-bitch", LOL)this summer i was trying to come up with a couple of things to get done around the house.

i came across this video from some other like minded folks. Enjoy!

Formspring #1-Did you or your wife start this lifestyle?

2010-06-17T14:48:00.002-04:00

It turned out to be a mutual discovery. W/we were having problems in the bedroom and after a long discussion about my inability to initiate intimate time between U/us, i told Mistress i wanted Her to take control. That led to reading and discovering the world of D/s. One of the funniest memories was being in Barnes and Noble and Mistress opening up a book on BDSM and showing me a picture of a sub all tied up and bound. i reacted with a violent "No!! That's not what i want!" The truth was, i didn't know what i wanted. It seems so funny in retrospect now that W/we have moved so far past it.

After exploring the bedroom side of D/s, Mistress discovered it was something She desired also. So W/we moved to a 24/7 relationship, with the beginning of it starting when She put on my metal collar after being away for a week on a business trip. The rest is history

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Ask U/us anything!!

2010-06-16T19:51:00.003-04:00

Taking a page off of a blog i follow, Hornynecouple, i decided to also join up with formspring.me to allow readers to ask questions. i have had the meebo chat up from time to time but have only had a few folks take advantage of it while i was on. This way you can ask ANY question ANYTIME! You can ask in the box to the right or go here:

http://formspring.me/lttlbtch

i will post selected questions and answers throughout. ASK AWAY!

Need a New Chastity Device-Pt 1

2010-06-05T18:17:00.000-04:00

The other name for this post could be "Big balls, small penis, and Hank Hill".

Lately, i have been thinking about things that would spark that D/s level up notch for U/us and i keep coming back to looking at chastity devices. The need for such a device is not because i cannot be trusted with Her cock. Instead, it is about submitting and giving complete control to Mistress of Her cock. i submitted control of my cock to Her for one of our anniversaries with a CB-3000.

W/we have had varied success with the CB-3000. When i first bought it, one of the pins broke and i ended up drilling both of them out and replacing them with metal ones. That made it last longer but also put strain on the plastic. That led to the cage breaking within the past year. Fortunately enough, when it first broke i called and they sent a replacement, so i actually have a backup. That takes me to this post.

One of the problems i had with the device is that the hinge on the big ring would rub up against my balls and cause some irritation. That meant interruptions in the length of time i was in the cage. In addition, my penis has a bad habit of shrinking up(smaller than it already is) and slipping out. So, i have come to the conclusion that the Cb-3000 is too long for me.

So now i am left with a plan some sort of plan of action to try to make the spare cb-3000 work or get another device. After doing some extensive research, i found that there are many more options now than when the cb-3000 first came out. It seems i would need to find a cage that is smaller if i was to replace the cb-3000.

To make the Cb-3000 really work, i would either need a Prince Albert piercing or some sort of rigging to tether my cock to the end of the cage. Mistress even purchased a Prince's Wand that did not require a PA piercing but found that the rod was too large for my "narrow urethra". W/we even used sounds to try to widen it but the largest i could get was a Fr 13. And since there isn't any other Prince's Wands with that narrow diameter, it is ruled out. Looking at the PA is still a possibility but not a step Mistress want me to take yet. So the final idea i had was a glans ring placed tightly behind the head attached to a chain with a lock to prevent any shrinkage/pull out.

This is a picture of a similar hookup from Hers Forever

Next post, purchase a new device.

Right off Primetime TV

2010-06-02T21:09:00.009-04:00

Saw this last night on the first night of "America's Got Talent". Seems Howie and Piers liked it a lot. wink wink. Again, Femdom/Kink seems to be moving more and more mainstream.

Here is what Maricar does for her day job

http://www.maricar.us/

Fellatio

2010-05-11T23:13:00.008-04:00

Two incidents occurred that brought this post to mind. One was of the the post on one of the blogs i follow, King Unleashed. The other was some intimate time Mistress and i a week or so ago.

Elle over at Kink Unleashed wrote about the definition of fellatio and Her feelings on the subject. She also addressed Her boy toy's thoughts on the matter. i would have to say that i agree with BT(Boy Toy) and feel that receiving fellatio feels wrong. It is degrading the person giving it. i feel guilty receiving it since She is pleasuring me with Her mouth where it should be me that is uncomfortable and pleasuring Her. Do not get me wrong, it feels great! The times i am fortunate enough to be given such a gift by Mistress, i love it. But at the same time i feel guilty. That it is an act usually reserved for the vanilla folks or the male Dominant couples. i do understand at the same time that if She did not want to do it, She wouldn't. i also understand that She may be doing it for Her own pleasure. And this is Her choice. But sometimes i cannot help but be in conflict with myself partaking in an activity that is usually for the purpose to please the Mistress or humiliate the sub. it has been engrained that sucking cock is a job for the bitch.

The second time is this past weekend when Mistress felt i had earned some pleasuring and was incapacitated by a recent injury. This meant that She couldn't use one of Her hands like She normally does. Instead, She decided to use Her luscious mouth. And oh, did it feel good. i think She stopped and moved to Her other hand because She knows me and knows how quick i can cum when it "feels really good".

i cannot deny loving the feeling of Mistress' mouth and tongue on my little cock. But at the same time feel bad for taking on such a pleasure. i guess that is why when it happens, it is truely a gift that should not be taken for granted.

Brush with The Real World

2010-05-11T22:16:00.003-04:00

Well, today was the first time in a while that aspects of O/our D/s relationship met with a stranger in the vanilla world. Mistress and i had to be in the big city in the federal building to for a meeting about O/our finances and O/our business. Surprisingly, W/we had considered the possible problem of getting through security with my metal anklets on. Unfortunately, W/we couldn't locate the tool needed to remove them in time to leave. i figured that since i had already been through airport security with my metal collar without as much as a whisper that today would not be any different. Well, it seems the feds have better security than the airlines.

W/we got there and just as W/we were to go through W/we were stopped and told no cell phones. O/our attorney immediately appeared right behind U/us and offered to take them in. Needless to say, that was also a no-no. So i sent Mistress in and walked back to the parking garage to put O/our phones in the car. When i returned everything was fine sending my stuff through. That was, until i had to walk through and the sensor went off. The gentleman waved his wand over my body without any problem and sent me through again. Buzz!!! He then had me remove my watch. Buzz!!! So i figured, what did i have to lose. i told them i think i may know what may be setting it off. i then rolled down my socks to show my metal anklets. The nice guy asked me if i could remove them in which i told him "Not easily" He chuckled and asked if they were welded on.

Surprisingly enough, that was it. i guess either they have seen it all or had no idea on how to react. i think as time goes on and i get older, i am worrying less and less what other people think and ready to face these confrontations head on.

Baby Steps

2010-04-29T00:04:00.004-04:00

"Rome was not built in a day"

It seems that things are slowly starting to take shape and head back in the right direction. i am sure feeling like i have a steady handle on my new job has helped. Also, i cannot ignore the getting back into my proper role(body shaving, working around the house, pleasing Mistress) has helped things. i have said it in previous posts, but the 'ritual' of being a sub is important in that it keeps me in that state of mind regularly. When i get lazy and don't do those things, it keeps my mind off of Mistress and my responsibilities to Her. But when i do just one of my tasks, it tends to snowball into desiring to do other things for Mistress. Ultimately, this leads me to thinking of other ways i can please and service Her. i can almost taste it.

O/our friends, Domina and anthony, who took a break from their D/s relationship are back and strong once again. Even more exciting is their engagement. Mistress and i are so happy for them. Their renewed vigor has also been a inspiration in the prior dry spell.

So things are under way. i must admit that i am a little excited for some 1 on 1 time this July when O/our daughter goes away to camp for a week. i look forward to that time when i can service Mistress the way She ultimately wants to be served.

houseboi no longer

2010-04-24T18:43:00.003-04:00

It was short lived. my time as houseboi was cut short by a positive thing, but still one that came with consequences. i was really looking forward to spending a large amount of time at home keeping the house nice and thinking of all things i can do for Mistress. This time was shortened by a job offer that became available and i really couldn't turn down. The pay wasn't great but it got me back into the original field i was in before W/we took over the business.

If You follow my blog You know that i am not very good at change. This employment change was a big one and has led to my slacking on my responsibilities at home and for Mistress. By no means was this anyone's fault other than my own. i stopped body shaving. i stopped washing Mistress' panties by hand. i haven't done Her nails. i haven't even posted like i should. Although i was aware of this in the back of my mind, it kept being pushed away by the other things going on in O/our life (new job and closing the business). Mistress has been very kind to me regarding my lack of attentiveness. i know She understood what was going on and was cutting me some slack. She even allowed me to cum a couple of times even though i did not deserve it. Again, as always, i know i am a lucky boi to have such a kind and understanding Mistress. She has even been picking up more responsibilities on Her end to help us get through this time. This is way above and beyond what i deserve.

So after a decent weekend of rest it is time to pick myself up and step up to the plate and show Mistress i deserve such a wonderful Woman. None of this has been Her fault. She has been kind and gentle all the while dealing with Her own demons at work and school. As a matter of fact, Mistress hasn't even made a big deal about my laziness but instead more gentle. i am indeed lucky.

Time to get going, work on the house, Mistress, and the family. She has picked up the slack long enough. Now that i have my rhythm in a flow, now is the time to insert my Mistress at the top of the list, where She belongs.

Working on becoming houseboi

2010-03-18T09:20:00.004-04:00

W/we officially closed the doors on O/our business last Friday and one of the things i was looking forward to the most was being home and available for Mistress throughout the day. i find getting the house looking nice for Her and running errands for Her always makes me more submissive and happy that i am running around for Her.

Unfortunately, the week has not really allowed for me to be home much at all. Between getting things finished up at the business uninterrupted and trying to earn some side money to help make up for the lack of income from the business, it has left little time at home. i did get to enjoy a wonderful day with Mistress as She took off work for Her Dr.'s appointment and O/our appointment with the attorney. Though this is not the way i would choose to spend the day with Mistress, i enjoyed O/our time together immensely and look forward to other days like this in the future without the stressful appointments.

So now it's Thursday and i think this may be the first opportunity i may have to spend some time at home getting things in order. i will be also focusing on different ways that i can submit to Mistress while W/we are apart and i am at home throughout the day. No matter what, it is exciting to be looking at spending some quality time really focusing on Mistress and the family.

Femdom in the Mainstream II

2010-03-13T16:16:00.002-05:00

Yet again, i have seen two incidents of Femdom in the mainstream. Both, in a unlikely place. The first was a show on NPR called All Things Considered. They have been doing regular reports about the internet at age 40. Last weekend they highlighted the pink elephant in the room, sex. In the episode(here), they interviewed the CEO of Kink.com, Peter Acworth. Though this is not directly Femdom, many of the readers are aware that kink.com hosts a multitude of kink lifestyle sites, including Mistress' favorite, Men In Pain. i was kind of surprised considering all of the websites out there and their owners to speak to that they headed right to the area of kink. It seems that the area of kink and Femdom is creeping in little by little, each time.

The other incident was on another show on NPR called, Fresh Aire. In this episode(here), Terry Gross interviews a former professional Dominatrix, Melissa Febos. This particular reference was more directly Femdom and She shared Her experiences as a Pro-Domme for four years. Mistress and i enjoyed sitting down and listening to this insightful interview. Not surprising, is how intelligent She is. Having an extensive higher education background and a job teaching at a college.

i love running into these little blips in O/our mainstream life as they become, slowly, part of everyone's daily life.

Brace for Impact!

2010-03-04T18:48:00.005-05:00

It has been a while since i have put up anything here. i apologize to my readers and to Mistress, as She expects a minimum of a weekly post. Unfortunately, i have let the stress of O/our failing business get in the way of my responsibilities to Mistress. Needless to say, i received the punishment i deserved. A good ass beating. Mistress knows that i do not like it(i am not a pain slut) but i do relish the fact that She enjoys giving a good spanking. And that makes me happy. She got me good this time. She sometimes hold back a little knowing how much i whine about the pain. But i got what i deserved and i plan to do better. Here is the evidence of said spanking:

Since my last posting i have made note of a trend in Mistress' orgasms. It seems that since O/our intimate time has been diminished more by the work load, that when Mistress does get time to have an orgasm, they are big. i mean big. Full body twitch and head thrashing. And it is hot!! But one of the problems that arises is that She usually doesn't have Herself in a good position when this happens so Her head is usually resting on the headboard. This leads to massive smacking of the back of Her head on the headboard. She doesn't seem to mind when it is happening but afterwards it usually leaves Her sore. i have been trying to make sure that when i am allowed to be present for these sessions and i am asked to assist, that i put my hand in between Her head and the headboard. This even occurred during a hot moment in the shower together and She ended up wacking up against the tile. Ouch!! All i know is that i need to be more attentive so that i can be included in these sessions so as to prevent Her from hurting herself. But all i can say is, She is hot!!

Femdom in the Mainstream

2010-02-06T11:44:00.005-05:00

It seems that Femdom is showing it's presence in mainstream life more and more everyday. Mistress and i have discussed may a time about the public' fascination with BDSM. i sometimes think that is what it is, but sometimes i think that the creative folks have run out of ideas that are titillating but passable enough to make it past censors so it can be on television or the theatre. But it definitely seems folks are very curious about the lifestyle and what makes people do it.

Most recently i stumbled upon a old high school friend's Facebook post about being fitted for a dominatrix outfit. Of course it caught my eye and then i remembered Her involvement in a local theatre and that She was to play a Dominatrix in the local production of "Communicating Doors". i also noticed a post by one of Her friends to a New Yorker magazine review of a new play on Broadway called "Venus in Fur".

"Venus in Fur" is a play based on the novel "Venus in Furs" by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch. Both the play and the novel are unfamiliar to me but have definitely piqued my interest. In brief exploration of the novel, it is evident this is true Femdom, as per the wikipedia post. i don't know if Mistress and i will get the chance to travel up to NYC to see it, but it does look thought provoking.

Again, this is another example of BDSM, Femdom, and D/s coming out of the shadows and into the light of mainstream life.

Will it Fuck?-Episode 1

2010-02-01T13:05:00.000-05:00

Mistress and i have been discussing filming some of O/our playtime together. This was inspired by my post here where i shared a video of a Mistress having Her sub fuck a artificial pussy since he was no longer allowed to put his cock inside of Her. i thought it was a good idea as a form of practice for orgasm control(of which i have little). Mistress had a different take on it. She thought it would be fun to see how many different things i could be humiliated by being told to fuck. This idea was also inspired by O/our friends at The Path Least Chosen by having anthony fuck a teddy bear. So now trips to Wal-Mart had a whole new meaning.

My creative take on it was to mix it up with what Mistress had assigned with another video which advertises a blender in which they put anything they think of and try to blend it here. So with all of that, here is the first installment of: Will it Fuck?

Up and Down

2010-01-22T11:34:00.003-05:00

2010 has begun with a roller coaster in O/our household. As many of you know Mistress and i had some play time right at the beginning of the year and are probably waiting for the first installment of O/our first video. i am waiting for approval from Mistress and then W/we will post it up for Your enjoyment(and my embarrassment).

The new year has also brought a new sub into Mistress' life. She has been chatting with him very regularly and spending a good amount of time dominating him that way. On the domestic side, O/our business has gone through an upheaval of sorts and i have had to spend many hours working trying to get things running in a more efficient manner. Mistress has also taken on the responsibility in addition to Her other roles to help me with it. This has left very little quality time together but W/we are hoping that it will lead to a better financial status by this time next year.

Last night, Mistress was up chatting with Her sub till the wee hours of the morning and came to bed. i am not one to wake up in the middle of the night, even if there is a noise or such. This time was different in that She came to bed completely naked with Her beautiful body up against my already naked self. The combination of Her skin on mine and the orgasm denial approaching 3 weeks woke me up. Although W/we didn't do anything, i truly enjoyed pressing my body up against Her beautiful curves. i am sure i am extra sensitive since it has been a while since W/we have been physical in any way. Normally i am not that sensitive to theses kind of events as extra stress of work and family push those feelings away. i first noticed this trend when Mistress was feeling better and She had me get on my knees in front of Her in the kitchen. i could feel the bulge in my pants grow just by having Her do that. It is amazing how much you realize you miss it when it goes on the back burner.

i am hoping that as things improve the two of U/us have more quality time together and that i may have the opportunity to pleasure Her in the near future.

At Home Vacation Getaway(Pt 2)

2010-01-10T18:15:00.000-05:00

Everything went black when Mistress placed the blindfold on me. She then rattled through O/our cabinet to find what She was looking for. When She found what She was looking for, She said "I would like to try out my birthday present. i wasn't sure which one She was referring to, but as soon as She had me open my mouth i knew exactly what was on Her mind.

She slid a wide tip of a dildo in my mouth. She then instructed me to suck on it like a good bitch. i gladly obliged and sucked on Her new toy. She would sensually slide it in and out of my mouth, each time moaning and enjoying the show before Her. When She was done prepping my mouth, She took it out and told me She was going to put the large cock in Her eagerly awaiting pussy. Not like the small cock i Had. i couldn't see what She was doing but by the way the bed moved, i could tell She laid down next to me. i could also hear the wet slurping of Her new cock, sliding in and out of Her pussy. i stopped hearing that when the moans of Her orgasm grew louder and louder, drowning out the noise of the pounding dildo. She climaxed loudly, taking full advantage of the empty house. i knew She wouldn't be finished. i know Mistress better than that. Once She gets going, She cannot help herself to the buffet of orgasms at Her disposal.

i then felt the small penis in my mouth again. This time, with the harness attached to it. i could feel the weight of the dildo on the other side of it as She tightened up the straps around my head. After getting everything set, She climbed up, lowering Her pussy on top of the dildo. If i thought i could hear Her wetness before, now i had a front row seat. Mistress then raised and lowered Her pussy onto my face, sliding the large cock into Her eager pussy. i am sure the thought of fucking me without touching Her cock turned Her on.

It wasn't long at all before She was ready to cum again. This time, i assisted Her by thrusting my head upwards into Her mound, helping Her get the fucking She deserved by a cock worthy of the privilege. This time, Her screams were deafening, as She bounced up and down on my face while i bobbed upwards.

After a small break from Her explosive orgasm, She told me it was time for me to fuck my new girlfriend of the night. If you have read a previous post where i linked to a video of a submissive fucking a fake pussy for his Mistress, then you will understand where the next thing came from. i did not expect what came out of that post. See, after reading that post, Mistress got an idea. Instead of fucking a fake pussy, She would come up with other things to defile. Now a trip to Wal-Mart had a whole new meaning. Which lead me to the next post about a series of videos i will be presenting. Tune in soon

You May Want to Clear Your Schedule

2010-01-07T07:08:00.002-05:00

Saw this preview of an upcoming Law & Order:SVU episode scheduled for 9/8c on Wednesday. I think the preview speaks for itself

At Home Vacation Getaway

2010-01-05T11:00:00.000-05:00

Last Saturday W/we managed to make arrangements for O/our children so that W/we could have a quiet evening along before everyone went back to the work/school. So after dropping off the children, i returned home for a intimate evening with Mistress without disturbances.

When i returned home, Mistress had gotten in from doing a little shopping to prep Herself up for a impromptu photo session to try to obtain some high quality pictures of Herself for Her blog and profiles. Now, Mistress is always beautiful, but She looked stunning. W/we had just gone shopping for some new clothes that would flatter her already beautiful body. Several times throughout the shoot, i noticed Her cock getting hard. W/we would take some pictures and then take a break to look at them. Each time, She was getting more and more sexy. i made sure i was in my private attire(collar, black jock strap) so that it would promote Her dominance.

Afterwards, W/we had a nice quiet evening together having dinner and watching some television. When dinner was finished, i was instructed to go clean and prep the bedroom. After a little while of cleaning, Mistress came in and instructed me to get on my back on the bed. She then attached cuffs to both wrists and hooked them to each bedpost spread wide. My ankles were hitched together. After insuring i was tightly locked down, She went back to Her cabinet to get a blindfold. Needless to say, i was in heaven. This is my favorite position to be in. Bound and blindfolded. When She put the blindfold on everything went black. She then......(to be continued)

Too Hot Not to Share!

2009-12-31T13:15:00.000-05:00

In reading through my list of favorite blogs, i came across this post on the Married Domme that really "ground my gears". By "ground my gears", i mean turned me on. It seems i wasn't the only one turned on by this video. Though, i do feel that i was turned on for different reasons. Take a look.

This video and others like it turn me on because they give me ideas of things i could do for Mistress or things Mistress would like to do to me. Now, i wouldn't be excited about the idea of being locked up for 8 months, but i am sure that after that much time and the situation above, i could pull off a 1 minute orgasm(of course i have a quick trigger anyway). What really turned me on was the idea of maybe filming a video using a alternative like that blow up doll. i remember The Path Least Chosen blog which is now defunct and anthony had his little stuffed animal bear. But something about having that alternative pussy and performing for Mistress would be incredibly hot. Knowing how hot She would get knowing that i was fucking a pussy, not allowed to cum unless granted, all for Her pleasure. The whole idea turns me on and most likely is tied to the video fantasy or desire.

i remember when got Her first Strap-on harness and dildo. She could not wait to get home and fuck Her little bitch in the ass. Mistress was already dripping wet before She even slipped Her big cock in my bitch ass, knowing that this was the true expression of Dominance over me. i am fairly sure having me fuck a fake "puss" would make rare times Mistress would allow me inside of Her even more special. Who knows, maybe would even want to fuck my ass while i was putting it Her cock in the fake one. Even better, it could be my "practice puss" to work towards controlling myself so i can satisfy Her for the as long as She wants. i don't know, but it all sounds hot. Thanks Married Domme for sharing!

Bad Santa

2009-12-25T18:43:00.004-05:00

Well, i have managed to screw things up again. Of course, being my own fault, i am the only one to blame. This Christmas i never managed to get any for Mistress. i spent much time considering what i could get Her, but the problem is that She is so generous and selfless that She never expresses anything She wants(materially). To add to the problem, i am not very good at making decisions by myself. In the past, when i had planned something special for Her for one of the important Holidays of the year, i have ended up sharing it with Her before hand(instead of making it a surprise) and W/we would change it up to something She really wanted to do.

This does not excuse me from not getting Her anything, but in my own little mind, had hoped that She would get me nothing this Christmas and that i could make it up to Her by taking Her out and spoiling Her for the day(Not that Mistress needs a holiday to be taken out). But at least i would feel that She would get what She desires and the money wouldn't be wasted on something She wouldn't like, never use, and just pretend to like.

Her most recent birthday i managed to do about 50%. Which was better than i was expecting since i was running low on ideas. i had been working on it for several months but had been coming up dry. The inspiration came in the 12th hour and i managed to pick something pretty good. Actually, i think She enjoyed all of Her gifts, but i think what She liked the most was Her new watch.

After discussing this with Her today, She made me aware of many little things She would like. The other problem i run into is that i put artificial high expectations on how i would like each Holiday to turn for Her. i desire for every gift i get Mistress to be as meaningful and special as the first gifts W/we exchanged W/we first met. That leads me to make no decision since it doesn't meet my demands. Instead, i should have bought Her small gifts(the act is more important that gift).

i hope to try to make it up to Her this upcoming week, though She doesn't like to spend money on Herself. i think a nice day of pampering is in order. i know i really screwed up this year but i hope to try to make it up to Her All i know is that i better not show up to any holiday empty handed. Sorry Mistress.

An Early Christmas Present-Part 2

2009-12-20T16:00:00.000-05:00

So Mistress had gotten very aroused and hot and bothered after O/our short time together. So much, that right after the alarm went off on Friday morning, i felt some rubbing on my naked ass. Mistress had gotten up and started snuggling close to me. Rubbing my ass, moaning, stroking my leg. This is definitely one of the best ways to wake up in the morning. But it got better.

Unbenounced to me, Mistress was craving Her cock again. She managed to reach around and stroke it little by little. By this time, i had rolled over to my back and had Her stroking Her toy. Mistress didn't seem satisfied with the climax that drained Her cock last night. She wanted to drain every drop that had been stored up over the past 1 3/4 weeks. So She rubbed faster and faster, knowing i would not be able to take it much longer(She knows me so well). i asked if She wanted me to cum in which She responded with the affirmation that She wanted Her little bitch to climax. i then shuddered again, like the night before, all over. This time, i am sure She drained Her cock dry. Afterwards, i offered to service Her but She declined, pleased with Her morning activities and ready to go about Her day.

So Christmas came(pun) early this year in O/our house. Even though her cock is dry, it still aches for Her more than ever.

An Early Christmas Present-Part 1

2009-12-19T15:10:00.005-05:00

Things have been on the down low recently with the hustle and bustle of the holidays, my parents visiting, and Mistress finishing up Her Masters Thesis class for Her degree last week. So much of Mistress' energies have been put towards that and with whatever leftover energy She has been focusing on providing warm quality family time for the holidays. i have really enjoyed it. W/we have spent much free time this past weeks just being together as a family and enjoying each other. She has also renewed some hobbies to help with the stress. i have done a little of that but have tried to be more helpful around the house and to Her needs. i have also been doing some more blog reading which always leads me to more thinking about Mistress.

So on Thursday night, Mistress noticed that i have been extra attentive to Her and particularly affectionate. i had felt bad that She had not been serviced in a while or hadn't masturbated. Mistress in Her wonderful kindness felt bad it had been a while since either one of U/us had climaxed told me to follow Her into the bedroom while O/our daughter was taking a shower.

After getting naked and making out for a short time, She was reminded how much She missed being pleased. After rubbing Her untouched pussy and bringing Her to an orgasm, i was instructed to get a condom and pleasure Her with Her cock!! i couldn't believe it. It had been a long time since Mistress had desired the pleasuring of Her pussy with Her eager cock. Of course i didn't waste any time following my instructions and slowly put Her throbbing cock inside Her eager mound. I offered to place numbing cream on it so that i may pleasure Her longer and without the risk of climaxing too quickly. She turned down the idea leu of the fact that O/our time together was going to be short anyway. That was exactly what it was. But that doesn't mean it wasn't pleasurable. i was able to bring Her to climax with Her cock and i was allowed to cum with Her, though i am not sure i would have been able to hold off after hearing the sounds of Her moans.

W/we had a little time to recoup afterward before O/our daughter was going to be out of the shower. i think this short time together triggered Her sex drive, because She was hot and bothered the next morning......

Thumper's Rule

2009-12-13T22:52:00.000-05:00

i recently read a thought provoking post at Denying Thumper. In it he outlines a new rule instituted between him and his Mistress in order to promote more intimate pleasure for his Queen. Here is the synopsis he listed on his blog:

I am not allowed to come on to her within 72 hours of her last orgasm. She, of course, is still free to instigate something, but I’m to respect her personage for at least three days after she comes.
On the third night, I can try to seduce her (including putting my hands in places they aren’t normally allowed to go), but if she tells me she’s not interested I need to withdraw immediately and wait until the next day to make another move (or however long she prefers).

i have been known to also be less than attentive in the intimacy category in the past. Lets face it, life gets in the way and sometimes even Mistress' may need a little spark to remind them that She is as desired as well as worshiped. i think this plan, as dry as it may be, might work well to keep that alarm set to make sure Mistress is not only serviced but reminded that She always feels that She is a desirable woman.

The one flaw is that the timeline may be too ling for Mistress. In reality, i think She may want to be approached constantly so this may not work. i always desire Mistress but sometimes i need a wake up call that rings louder than the everything else around me. W/we will see how it goes and if Mistress thinks this is a good idea. She may feel it is a bit robotic but i think it may help keep those cooling embers stoked.

my Honor

2009-12-09T09:07:00.003-05:00

i am so proud of of Mistress! She has been working on Her masters degree since the spring and just finished Her Masters Thesis last night. i know it was a huge accomplishment for Her to dothis all the while working full time in a new career. Unfortunately, this does not mean the end of Her Masters work since the thesis came a little over 3/4 through the process, but it still is a huge hurdle behind Her and She can not have to worry about it anymore. i am so proud of Her and all of Her hard work.

As you can imagine, it has made it even more challenging to try to connect and have quality time together. But i think W/we have managed well

and after some deep discussions, a getaway for Thanksgiving, i feel W/we are doing better. i am feeling more submissive and in turn i am not letting Mistress down.

On other notes, W/we have not had any real "play time" for Mistress but it seems W/we manage to squeeze in some orgasms for Mistress(and She is VERY generous to reciprocate if i have been good and attentive). W/we had a nice shower together this past weekend which reminded me that W/we do not hardly do that enough. i offered to come in and wash Her back, body and hair. i love doing that for Her and i need to find more times to do that. Of course, that turned Mistress on and i rubbed Her wet pussy to orgasm. i was not allowed to cum.

Later that weekend W/we found a little time to play with the Hitachi Magic Wand and i brought Mistress to climax a couple of times, after which She quickly had me cum with the wand myself.

See, i am very lucky. She is not only beautiful, generous, kind, caring, loving. She is also very smart(as per Her academic pursuits). it is amazing that i am married and owned my such an amazing Woman.

i do not have any items to give Her. So i present this award. i figure it is appropriate since it seems like it may be a accurate replica of Her cock.

Two worlds collide

2009-12-01T11:35:00.003-05:00

For the first time in my life i had a moment in which my D/s lifestyle and my vanilla life came head to head and almost collided. i am sure many of you out there feel as though you are mildly schizophrenic in trying to keep these two worlds apart. Some folks are fortunate that they do not have to hide their true self from the world, but the rest of us must maintain the vanilla status quo in order to protect our professional lives. Because of that, i live two lives in person and online. There is the side of me the general public, family, and most friends see. Then there is the side of me that Mistress sees and i share with certain folks online. All along keeping two separate identities.

So i was on facebook(with my one identity) and noticed a friend from high school had posted Her status as having to get fit in order to play a dominatrix in an upcoming play this January. i wanted to comment and even offer suggestions in which She could read up in order to get into character. Just before commenting i realized i couldn't do that. i am not "out" with my vanilla friends and they would not understand. So i let it go.

For the first time in my life i think i started to know how it must feel to be a homosexual and still in the closet. Of course this hardly compares to the discrimination gays face day to day. But, i felt like i had a very small clue what it must be like to have to hide part of yourself in fear of judgement by your friends and family.

Mistress and i cannot really be pigeon holed into Republican/Democrat or Conservative/Liberal but W/we have always been in support of a persons right to be who they want to be and to live their live as they see fit, as long as it doesn't harm anyone else. Needless to say, the sympathy i had for the gay community(and any other group that lives in secret out of fear) has grown even more.

i consider myself lucky that i can be who i am with my Wife and the folks who i have met who are part of D/s.

A little BDSM for the holidays

2009-11-26T17:52:00.001-05:00

Saw this advertisement for one of the art galleries in Washington D.C. A little kink to go with your turkey

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Oh to be Bound

2009-11-11T09:53:00.005-05:00

In an effort to try to express myself for Mistress and share some of my fantasies(or desires) i hit upon another trigger. i really love to be bound. It doesn't have to be rope or any other particular material, but more importantly is the simple fact of being restrained. Confined so that i cannot move and i am totally at the whim of Mistress and Her desires.

Over the years W/we have explored different aspects of it. Sometimes Mistress will just bind my hands. Other times, She will go through an elaborate rope tying in which it has turned out both beautiful as well as functional.

Unfortunately, the house W/we live in doesn't allow for any type of dungeon setup. W/we have discussed putting some eye hooks in the ceiling so that i could be more easily accessed, but nothing as of yet. i have found various setups that allow you to maintain a "vanilla" house while having use of restraining equipment. One company, Foxy Furniture used to make them but due to their space constraints, allows you to download free plans to make them yourself. They have two items that "transform" from regular furniture to functional equipment. Looks like some really great ideas if you are handy with a saw and such.

Another company makes a Portable Dungeon that looks very intriguing. Definitely affordable and able to be taken down as needed.

But i digress. i very much desire to be bound. i fantasize about having Mistress tie me up to a St. Andrew's cross or from some eye hooks from the ceiling. She would then leave me there, in all my leather harnesses and ball stretcher. She would go an change into a hot leather corset with Her heels, making Her even more Dominating than usual. She would then rub Her wet pussy, getting Herself off several times because She is turned on by the display before Her. She would then periodically stroke Her cock to the point of climax and stop. Each time She stopped, She would find a new toy to pleasure Her. From time to time She would back Her hot box onto Her throbbing cock and ride it. Again, stopping before my climax. This would go on for hours. In between, She may go get food, watch television, or surf the net. While surfing, She would realize that pictures of the occasion would be appropriate so She would get the camera and capture moment forever(and share with others). Eventually, after teasing and arousing me, She would allow me to cum. But She would command that i cum far to show my desire for Her. Of course, after all the teasing, it would feel like the string on a bow and arrow pulled all the way back on the verge of release. i would come so hard that it would shoot halfway across the room. She would leave me there to wilt and recover.

Share a Fantasy

2009-11-11T09:32:00.005-05:00

This past weekend was rough because of my meltdown and O/our examination of O/our D/s relationship. Throughout O/our discussions, Mistress expressed disappointment that i have never shared any fantasies with Her. i am not one to fantasize. This is most likely due to the fact that i only desire for Mistress to be pleased and i feel that my fantasizing i may be "topping from the bottom". But, one did occur to me this past weekend.

In one of O/our closer moments Mistress asked me to stand by the bed and put a show on for Her while She rubbed her neglected pussy. It was at that time i realized how much i enjoy performing for Mistress. Giving Her Her own private show. It is most likely why i enjoy making those videos for Her to show that i have done the tasks She has asked of me. i am not sure if it is a fantasy or just expressing something i enjoy doing for Her, but i found it revealing and surprising that i felt this way.

Of course i was able to enjoy the show that was before me also. Nothing is hotter than watching Mistress rub HEr aching pussy while i performed for Her by stripping and rubbing Her cock for Her pleasure. It was incredibly intense and i felt a high that i only experienced when i did the same for Her on video.

So i guess my fantasy lies in desiring to perform and/or film my performance for the pleasure of Mistress. i hope that maybe Mistress may have some assignments or "requests" for me in the future.

Words of Wisdom

2009-11-09T12:12:00.005-05:00

"You are only measured by what you give."

"You can only give what you have."

These are gems of wisdom delivered by Dr. Tim Lautzenheiser at his leadership training seminars for high school band students. i have repeated it many times over the years when i was a teacher and now i am going to take my dispensed advice.

This past weekend i had a type of meltdown with my feelings of being overwhelmed at work now that Mistress is no longer there to help. This all culminated with a harsh awakening of my neglected responsibilities at home and to Mistress. The past few months have been difficult trying to adjust to the new work situation and maintaining my servitude to Mistress. i very much desire to submit to Her but at the end of the day there is "nothing left in the tank".

This is where the opening phrase comes into play. i have discovered that i cannot submit(give) to Mistress if i have given all i had all day long. Of course there are many ways to "put more in the tank"(i.e.-go to bed earlier, eat better, etc.) and both of those will be helping me to better provide for Her in the upcoming week. But adjusting and guarding my energy levels throughout the day should also allow me to be active at the end of the day.

It is really amazing how a loving, caring, and sympathetic Domme can make all the difference in the world. She made me feel so much better by listening to my problems and not making me feel bad about myself as a person because of it. For that, i am very fortunate.

So i start this week anew with vigor and a new outlook. All in effort to be a better person, business owner, father, husband, and most importantly:submissive.

She is...

2009-11-01T01:00:00.000-04:00

She is beautiful.

She is sexy.

She is loving.

She is caring.

She is the center of my universe.

She is an incredible mother.

She is a natural teacher.

She is Dominant

She is understanding

She is funny

She is caring

She is generous

She is thoughtful

She is my Love

She is my friend

She is my Mistress

She is my Wife

She is all these things and more.

i love You.

Happy Birthday Mistress!!

Dealing with the "Switch"

2009-10-14T23:13:00.003-04:00

Work and family activities have keep Mistress and i very busy lately. In addition to O/our responsibilities, sickness and allergies of the the harvest season have reeked havoc on O/our lives. This has really pushed O/our D/s time to the back burner while W/we regroup and recover.

This "drop" most likely occurred after a couple of disappointing weekends with O/our non-vanilla friends. i am happy to say that all is well but that W/we will be waiting for things to regroup and settle down before W/we plan another get together. One of the things that those events stirred was the desire to find some more like minded folks. This search has lead to some observations and revelations on my part.

First, W/we are very lucky to have met and befriended people like Domina and anthony. Not only are T/they great people but rare. What i mean by that is that i am slowly discovering that the BDSM community is a niche group. Within that group is an even smaller sub-section(LOL) of folks in a committed Female Led Relationship. This is my second observation.

Couples in a real Femdom relationship are very rare. There seems to be a large amount of people that are into the play aspect of what D/s may bring, but not so many that are really interested into submitting to their Mistress. This is by no means a judgement, but an observation. It really blows me away that Mistress and i even met up with Domina and anthony at all.

Lastly, there seems to be a large cross-section of the BDSM community that identifies themselves as "Switches" Which brings me to the subject of this post. Mistress and i have had many discussions on "switches". It may be O/our relationship or O/our biased lenses in which W/we view the world, but D/s is not something i feel is swappable.

If one is a true submissive, they cannot turn that off. Being submissive is not just about the bedroom. It is a mindset. It is a lifestyle. i see couples all the time and can tell how it plays out, even if it doesn't show it's head in a form of kink. There is a top and there is a bottom. Black and white. i feel that those folks who can change like a chameleon are mearly into the role-playing aspect of D/s.

This really has become evident to me in the search for other like minded couples on other sites. The male Dom and female sub are the majority and the switches are a close second. The Female Led Relationships are a small section of these people.

i am not sure i will ever understand switching and that i may have upset some of my readers by my statements here but this is something that i have been stewing on for quite a while an wanted to put it out in the open. Everyone should express themselves as they feel fit. But being a submissive, i only see it one way.

Another Commercial to Share

2009-10-06T18:49:00.004-04:00

A friend of mine made me aware of this new commercial. The only problem is, i don't know of ANY Dominatrix that does something "on command". More like the other way around.

Mainstream BDSM

2009-10-04T16:13:00.006-04:00

In Mistress' post "Domination Goes Mainstream" , Mistress linked to Master Kelly's site where he does an extremely thorough job of finding BD/SM in the media(television, movie, print). Mistress has asked me to take a look at the sight and give it a once over. i thought i would periodically post some of the better findings, since many of these episodes are hard to find online.

So on the end of a fall weekend, enjoy this take on being a professional Domme in "Secret Diary of a Call Girl"

Weekend Recovered

2009-09-28T12:44:00.004-04:00

As stated in Mistress' blog and here, W/we were supposed to get together with Domina and anthony this Saturday for a second try at dinner. Unfortunately, the plans fell through at the last moment and Mistress and i were left sitting looking at each other two hours before we were supposed to meet. It would not have been so bad if W/we hadn't driven O/our daughter to her grandmother's for the weekend the night before(3 hour ride each way). Also, W/we have the added difficulty of living far away from a big city, so making new plans was out of the question. So Saturday was spent in sitting around in a blue funk and just frustrated.

Don't get me wrong, i really like Domina and anthony. But until anthony can manage his ex-wife and put his foot down on her irresponsible behavior, this is always going to be problem. i hope that they can work it out so Domina and anthony can be together without interference.

So Sunday arrived, which meant, getting back in the car and putting another 6 hours on the road. Mistress decided to take it upon herself to make the drive alone since i had a church commitment that morning. Also, that way, She would be home at a decent hour. i decided that since i would have the day to myself that i would take it upon myself to clean up O/our bedroom so that it would be more conducive to being together instead of bringing the feeling of crashing.

Having stewed on the text messages Mistress sent me on Thursday, i decided to return the favor. i was getting hard just thinking about them. One in particular, "Lick me from my clitoris to my asshole" had me wound up. It had been a very long time since Mistress had let me partake in the feast of Her mound. Knowing She would need some cheering up, i sent Her one hot message after another, expressing my desire to taste Her and please Her.

my messages were met with approval. i even sent a couple of pictures(utilizing the new MMS feature on the iPhone) of how hard She made me. Mistress instructed me to take a picture of my ass and a pic of it spread, of which i was happy to oblige.

By the time She arrived home, W/we were both wound up. W/we made arrangement for O/our daughter to lay down while i serviced Mistress. Oh boy! i could have eaten Her out all day an night. i made Her cum over and over again. Each time harder. Mistress then desired Her cock inside of Her. i suggested using the special medical cream so that She could ride it the way She likes. After apply the cream, She mounted and rode Her cock hard. Porn Star hard. i was so pleased to watch Her get off on Her cock.

Mistress came several times this way, including Her ejaculating also. i was instructed to get on top and give it to Her. It was wonderful knowing i could do as She asked without the fear of it ending too soon. W/we both ended up coming and having to stop out of sheer exhaustion.

it wasn't a very D/s scene, but it was no less hot. And most importantly, Mistress was serviced. i was very glad we were able to turn the weekend around and make something out of it.

A Wonderful Night Ruined....

2009-09-25T09:32:00.003-04:00

...by me.

Thursday is my scheduled long night at work, due to O/our daughter's after school activities. With what she has and where it is located, it doesn't make sense to go home in between, so i stay at work and try to get things done.

Just like most days recently, things have been very hectic and busy at work. i was pleasantly surprised when i received a text message from Mistress instructing me to go into the bathroom and stroke Her cock and stop before climaxing, three times. i texted back asking if She desired proof(video). She did. i was very excited. i love making videos for Mistress and it has been a while since She has requested one. The only other instruction was that to make it different. This was a challenge since i was at work and had little to work with.(no pun intended) So i proceeded to the bathroom to complete my task. i was already half bulging out of my pants before i even got started i was so excited. i managed to make video of about 5 min in length and tried to dress(or undress) it up. i do desire for Mistress come up with different things She would like to see on video.

i was pretty wound up most of the day after that. Mistress continued to send hot messages that kept getting me excited for Her. i knew She had a hold on me since it is difficult to snap out of the "work world" and be there in that mindset. Many times, even when i am speaking with Mistress on the phone, i am interrupted by other phone calls, customers, and employees.

The later part of the day was spent trying to balance trying to post up the video for Mistress(video was too large to email) and getting things done. In the messaging back and forth, Mistress has commented that She thought there were changes in store for this weekend's "Take 2" with Domina and anthony. W/we somehow got on the discussion of hard limits and i felt like i wanted to discuss this with Mistress and try to explore my feelings. The problem arose when i arrived home last night that my daughter was being particularly chatty and needy and i was having a difficult time accessing those feelings. By nature, i usually start with the negatives, which ends up taring down Mistress' excitement and enthusiasm. Mistress was also all over me, but again, O/our daughter really wouldn't allow for a moments peace. By the time we has some peace and quiet, i was frustrated and defensive. This was not my desired outcome of the evening. Mistress has planned a really hot evening and i had basically flushed it down the toilet.

i felt really bad. i was looking forward to the evening with Her and i had managed to dismantle the entire thing with insensitive comments and being closed. i know that i have a hard time tapping what i am feeling about things. The problem is that i like to gather opinions and then i derive my own. The other problem is that i hadn't given any thought to the topic at hand. So i had nothing.

i really love the way Mistress set up the whole day and the way She flirted with me on and off. i know i was cold and closed, but i am sorry for what occurred. i thankful for all She does and for having me write in this blog. i feel that i can put my feelings out in a clear an helpful way by writing here.

One of the texts W/we have been sharing back and forth has been.

i love You.

i need You.

i want You.

That will always be true for me.

What a Week!

2009-09-18T08:33:00.003-04:00

Much has happened since i posted last Friday. The bad part has been that it hasn't been any calmer. The great news is that it has been a great week.

O/our dinner plans with Domina and anthony went great(until they has to leave ubruptly). They were so kind to make the drive to U/us and have dinner at O/our house. This is very special in that most of O/our friends(and family for that matter) will not make the drive out to see U/us and it usually means that W/we have to travel. After several glasses of wine conversation was all over the road. W/we covered everything from D/s to Disney. It has been a long time since Mistress and i have had that much fun with another couple. It was unfortunate that the evening had to be cut short due to domestic problem at home. The good news is that it looks like W/we will try to pick up where W/we left off in a couple of weeks.

Sunday was spent recouping and resting for the upcoming week. Monday ended up presenting some pleasant surprises. O/our daughter had her first Girl Scout meeting and it turned out that instead of the usual 1 hour meeting, they were extending the time to 1 1/2 hours and feeding the girls dinner. That meant that Mistress and i could have some quiet time alone. Well, it wasn't quiet. Mistress decided She wanted to play with Her two favorite toys, me and the Rimba. This time She added a finger up my ass to the Rimba and it sent me over the edge. i know She gets very turned on and wet knowing She can control Her cock with a remote control and Her finger, without even touching it. Needless to say, i came very hard with copious amounts of cum. If you haven't used one of these, you need to put it on your shopping list.

Monday's events helped to propel us through the week of work and activity. i was busy rehearsing with my chamber music ensemble all week in preparation for a concert on Thursday. That meant i was out most nights. Mistress was very supportive of me and my music. i know this is hard for Her but i am so appreciative of Her support this week.

Last night was our music ensemble's concert. This included a free dinner in which i could bring Mistress too. It turned out great and one of the highlights of the night was having Mistress sitting front row only 7 feet away the whole concert. It was a little distracting(in a good way). I tried to make eye contact throughout the performance while balancing my responsibilities of the group.

Looking back on the week, it was very busy but real good. i couldn't be more lucky to have a supportive and understanding Mistress who allows me to pursue my music. So many things have been positive in O/our lives this week. W/we both have been eating better(of course because of Mistress) and that has led to U/us both feeling better.

i just can't say how lucky i am to be loved, married, and cared for my such a wonderful Mistress.

Picture i had to share

2009-09-12T13:32:00.001-04:00

Great picture from roflrazzi.com.

The Pen is Mightier than the Sword

2009-09-11T14:10:00.004-04:00

At least the keyboard is.(in this case). In re-reading my post from last night and speaking with Mistress, i realized i was hurtful in some of my comments. i was not intending for that result but should have written my post when i was in a better state of mind instead of when i was upset and at work. i am familiar with the lesson of "When you are upset, write a letter, then put it away. Come back a day later and re-read the letter and make the changes. Follow this for several days and see if your feeling are a little more clear". i think that good advice that i should apply to my blog.

i definitely made it seem like i wasn't appreciative of all that Mistress does for me. On the contrary, i am extremely appreciative of all She has done. She has taken up some of my chores around the house to counteract the long hours at work. It was also very touching how She created a special moment when She put my anklets back on(of which i was very excited to have back) i was very dismayed that i had left that out last night in my post, because that was my original intention(instead of going off on a tangent).

i am also very excited of the things to come. Mistress has planned a nice get-together with Domina and anthony for the weekend, which looks to be very promising since it has been a long time since W/we have caught up with them. i am also very excited for the upcoming podcast Mistress and i have been working on putting together. W/we hope to provide folks with good information and some stimulating ideas.

So let that be a warning to everyone to learn from my mistake(or a reminder). Make sure you edit, correct, modify, and rethink before you hit send, save, or my favorite "submit".

Post Birthday Chaos and Kryptonite

2009-09-10T20:26:00.004-04:00

As many of you have read, W/we celebrated my birthday a couple weeks ago with what i would call "Orgasmfest 2009". It's true, the best things in life ARE free!!

The wonderful weekend Mistress provided was followed by life, work, and kid changes. This has definitley caused our D/s time to take a seat on the back burner. Mistress was on Her second week of Her new job(and profession) and i was still struggling to learn the ropes and all that She did at O/our business. In order to recoup some sanity and strength, W/we decided to make a medium drive to my in-laws on the Lake. Normally. this would be relaxing, but when accompanied by four children, it can be a bit un-nerving. The kids were great but the act of loading them all up into a car and making a 3 hour drive(with dogs) can be a bit much.

Before we left for the lake, Mistress removed my anklets since i would probably be swimming in front of them in plain view. The effect is like Kryptonite to Superman. i noticed immediately the lightness of my feet and legs. i knew deep inside i felt incomplete. Sometimes it's really frustrating to have to put on these "masks" for other people.

When W/we got back, things became more hectic. O/our daughter was starting school and i was missing one of my employees for the week while She was on vacation. So things have been twice as stressful.

i know this is sounding like a "gripefest" but it is difficult to get into "sub space" with so many distractions around. i am hopeful that W/we will be able to get into a new routine and get back to that place W/we both desire to be.

Birthday Weekend

2009-09-01T19:51:00.003-04:00

Mistress was so wonderful to plan a nice birthday weekend for me. It was a different experience for me since Mistress asked what i wanted. i was left speechless and dumbfounded. i always defer to Mistress on decisions and find it very difficult to tap into my personal feelings on what i want to do. The best i usually muster up is becoming the 'Devil's Advocate" which ends up driving Mistress batty.

With funds being tight and Mistress having planned to have O/our daughter to stay at a friends house over the weekend, W/we decided to stay home and just enjoy each other. This of course led to what sexual things i desired for my birthday weekend. Without prior thinking, planning, and stewing, i found it difficult to pinpoint something. i know most guys out there can roll off a list of kinky fantasies in a heartbeat but my mind doesn't work that way. Every time i came up with something, it was "Mistress Centric". After trying to come up with something, i came up with a challenge of how many times Mistress could get me to cum in 24hrs. Sounded like a fun and pleasurable challenge.

And it was. Mistress did something different every time. She rode me first to orgasm. Mistress stroked me to climax twice. She teased me to peak with The Hitachi Magic Wand. Lastly, She had me stroke myself to cum. i think Her cock was numb by the time it was said and done. When it was all said and done, She had made me cum 5 times. i really wish i could have given Her more or had pleasured Her more with Her cock, but i don't think She felt at all unsatisfied since She managed to squeak out 12 climaxes. Several of them shook the house and left marks on my back(yum).

i am so fortunate to have a wonderful Mistress who takes such great care of me. But now, i lookf forward to getting back to my role a the provider of pleasure for Her.

Next year, i will be sure to give it some more thought, even if it doesn't "cum" naturally.

Food for Thought-Femdom in the Media

2009-08-27T20:55:00.005-04:00

i thought i would share this gem from the 1970's. Made me giggle. Maybe 8 isn't enough?

Video Killed the Radio Star

2009-08-24T20:47:00.003-04:00

Mistress has been requesting of me lately that i dismiss myself at work to the bathroom and stroke Her cock up to release and stop. Of course, i eagerly obeyed and decided to take it a step farther and provide some proof of the task at hand(no pun). i was able to prop up my new iPhone 3GS to video the stroking of Her cock. Mistress was very pleased and i discovered a new form of excitement i had not felt before. Almost a type of exhibitionism. But it was different in that i was turned on by knowing She would be watching it and possibly getting off, rubbing Herself while watching.

i wasn't sure She would like it but was reassured by Her following up with more tasks of similar nature. Each time, i started to think of how i could make it more sexy and appealing for Her. So i decided to include the teasing of myself before hand and then taking out Her cock. i was incredibly turned on by the thought of making Her wet and pleasuring Herself to this. It just seemed to build up like a snowball rolling down the hill.

What i was not expecting was Mistress posting one of these videos on Her blog for the world to see. i am a little embarrassed and a little bit proud, that She felt i was worthy to the world. It even seems some readers have been given the assignment to watch said video. Again, i am honored.

i am always to proud to serve Mistress, but this particular aspect has been quite exciting and i am looking forward to future assignments from my Love.

A Romantic Post

2009-08-23T10:04:00.006-04:00

Mistress' number one complaint of me is my lack of romance. i cannot disagree with Her in that i find it challenging to be romantic(or at least express my love, devotion, and desire for Her) i am guilty of not expressing myself through romantic or thoughtful actions that i come up with on my own. From time to time i surprise Her with something out of the blue, but more often than not, i have to be provoked or reminded. i always feel bad that i am not naturally wired that way, but i am now turning my focus on my improvements on that aspect of O/our relationship. Up to now, i have worked towards making sure Mistress' needs are met and that my tasks and duties are being completed. Many of you who have been reading here know that i struggle with that also. As time has passed and i adjust to my new work duties, it is getting easier, which i hope will allow me to add that aspect to O/our relationship more often.

i know that this post was called "A Romantic Post", and it has been pretty clinical. i may not be the most romantic by nature person, but i can at least recognize romance. So i will direct you to someone who has put into words a very sweet, touching, and beautiful recollection of a personal experience. This comes from a blog you should definitely follow:

Let the Rain Come

Dark and quiet in the very early morning. The world is still around me. He breathes softly next to me. I reach my hand to him, feeling his warmth. He sighs a little as I stroke the skin of his back, from neck to waist. I turn to him and fit my hips against the curve of him, thigh against thigh, knee tucked in tight. Then with just a whisper I hear the rain begin.

It is so soft at first against the roof. We two are all alone in the small trailer here in the mountains. There is a darkness that is velvet and inky, it surrounds us. So seldom do we experience this much dark at home in the city. Little by little the rain grows. Little by little I stroke his skin harder and more. Down his side, then I reach around and stroke his chest, the pads of my fingers soft at first then I curve my fingers and let my nails drag a bit, then a bit harder down lower and lower. His sigh is deeper now. The rain falls harder now. He turns to me, kisses me full on the mouth, his hand running down my side.

"Will you stand with me outside in the rain?"

And so we slip on shoes but nothing else. And the rain falls through the canopy of the trees, huge oaks gather it on their palm shaped leaves and when it is too heavy to hold any longer they let spill down to the waiting earth. We step away from the doorway, away from the one small light on in the trailer that casts a soft glow out into the deep darkness. We stand together, warm naked bodies pressed chest to chest, hip to hip, thigh to thigh. And the rain is soft on our skin, our hair, our faces. We stand together and each turn our faces up to the falling rain. He stretches his hands up and out. I take my hands and touch him, feel him. From chest, to shoulder. Strong muscles pulled taut as he holds the pose. His hips press against me harder. His sex swells and I feel it against mine. My hands continue out along the plane of his outstretched arms until my hands reach his, my fingers curl against his palms. My face I press against his chest, that too now wet with the softly falling rain. Our skin where pressed together is hot, our skin where the rain has made us slick and wet is cool.

He curls his arms down and around me, his hands run down my rain wet back and lower still until he cups my ass pulling my hips even tighter to his swollen cock.

I kiss his lips again, open my mouth easily to him and taste this man I know with everything I am.

"Take me inside and make love to me."

from Honey's Hive

Even in virtual worlds

2009-08-19T23:36:00.002-04:00

Yes, even in virtual worlds, Mistress beacons me to serve Her. For those of you on Facebook, there is an application/game called "Farmville" which is not to unlike the Sims or Sim City. The premise is that you farm your land and help others farm their land. You gain points and money by helping others and in turn can grow your farm even more. Well, Mistress has needed some help on Her farm to keep things rolling. There are many chores and tasks that need to get done. So, i created a "Farmville" account and proceeded to set up camp next to my love's location so that i may regularly help Her harvest and maintain Her farm.

Now, if i could only do something about my dress attire.
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A How To Video-Foot Massage

2009-08-15T13:32:00.004-04:00

It is a lot of work being a Domme(so i have been told). So Mistress requested a foot massage from me, especially since O/our little one is away and i could spend more time and energy attending to Her needs. While She was lying on Her stomach surfing the web, She came across a video. This video demonstrates how to give a proper foot massage. i could see the video from where i was positioned and took note. The problem came when i couldn't replicate what the video was asking me to do since i was in a different position. i then insisted that i should do this correctly and desired to learn how to do it better than i have.

So i positioned Mistress around on Her back and set up the laptop so i could follow along. Mistress was immediately into Her relaxing moaning during the whole process. It's a great video. So i figured i would share for all of the subs out there looking to improve on their servicing of their Dommes feet.

Back, Legs & Feet:
How To Give A Stress Relieving Foot Massage

A Memorable Evening

2009-08-13T17:28:00.003-04:00

Yesterday was one the most erotic and intense days i can remember experiencing with Mistress. There have been other times in which both of U/us were in "The Zone" but, this one takes the cake. Usually, these special times are very planned out and orchestrated in order to make for the best results. i would have to say the spontaneity was incredible.

The day started with my usual path of getting up and going to work. Mistress and i conversed back and forth via text and facebook throughout the day. Then, i got a text message. This usually means She doesn't want prying eyes to see. She commanded me to go into the bathroom and stroke Her cock while i was thinking of Her, up until orgasm. She has asked this of me in the past but now, i was armed with a new piece of technology, my iPhone 3GS. For those of you that don't know, the new iPhone has a video camera on it. So i figured that i would provide evidence on my completed task to Her.

i proceeded into the bathroom and began to stroke Her cock. It didn't take very long to get hard. Just thinking about Her getting off when She gets the video in Her email was enough to drive me nuts. It didn't take long to reach the edge of orgasm, after which i emailed Her the video. This filming thing is something i have been wanting to incorporate into O/our relationship for a while, and this was the perfect time.

As i went through the day i was always a little more "primed" than normal. Between the stroking and the thoughts of Mistress being pleased by Her new video.

i got home later that evening to discover that She had spent most of the day cleaning and checking things off of Her list. She even made a big batch of chili for the family. i felt very spoiled. The remainder of the evening continued pretty much uneventful since our child was around.

W/we both decided to turn in for the evening. Me in my uniform(nothing on) and Mistress in Her night clothes. i guess the sight of me laying there and the interactions of the day spawned Mistress to not let this evening end so quickly. She climbed on top of me, in that dominating way i oh so love and W/we kissed and made out. All the while She rubbed Her pussy up against my hard erection. i love it when She gets on top and just takes command of Her desires.

Then She got off and instructed me to get on my hands and knees. Feeling that i deserved punishment for neglecting my duties at home, She proceeded to whack me with Her crop. Again, not losing my erection all the while. Knowing that She is enjoying my punishment and the show She is getting.

Afterwards She had me lay on my back. i was instructed to touch Her now dripping pussy. Thats enough to make your heart rate increase!! Mistress has been talking about a good ass fucking for a while, and that's exactly what She did. Not the usual strap-on, but a double ended dildo.

Of course She was very caring and gentle to warm up my ass for the impending penetration. Using Her fingers with that "come here" gesture to rub my prostate. i feel like a puppet in Her hands when She does this. i am totally in Her control and at Her whim. After getting me started, She proceeded to the dildo. It was incredible to feel the long cock slide into my eager ass. Mistress also decided to compare my small member to the large cock She and i would be taking in. After inserted into me, She proceeded to put the other end in Her pussy. Rocking back and forth, i could feel the cock slide in and out of me as it slid in and out of Her. W/we are lucky that our daughter sleeps deep since the moaning and screaming was over the top. i think Mistress came several times. Each time She stopped, my cock would feel a warm burning sensation, the pulsing of my prostate. i could practically just stay there and most likely could cum. We repeated this several times until i could take no more. i begged and begged for Her to let me cum. In all of Her kindness i released a stream of cum like never before.

After W/we had come down from O/our sexual high, i was still moaning and semi hard for almost a half hour later. What a memorable night!!!

Adding to My Metal

2009-08-09T22:08:00.003-04:00

This past week has really been wonderful with Mistress. For those of you who have not followed, Mistress and i had four days in a row kid free!!! This has been a first for U/us. It has allowed me to dress more appropiately at home and in front of Her. i know it pleases He when i wear just my leather collar, Her panties, and nothing else. In addition, Mistress mixed it up by purchasing a Rimba(e-stim) for U/us to play with. It didn't go as planned the first couple of times, but the desired effect was achieved on the third. You can read more on Her blog here.

Mistress also has me don Her silky night shirt when i was cold. It was nice to be free to serve and please Her in the ways She enjoys most. Usually W/we have to go away in order to have this quiet time and it changes up O/our routine. It was great to be able to stay in O/our daily routine with the added dimension even more present.

Quiet. Did i say quiet? Well, when it came to servicing Mistress, quiet was NOT the appropiate word. With no kids in earshot, my ears were treated to moans and screams as Mistress felt free to cum as hard and LOUD as She likes. What a treat. It makes me hard just thinking of it. i think She hurt Her voice a couple times this week.

You would also think it would be all about the sex. But it wasn't. It was better. W/we were also able to have full un-interrupted conversations and just enjoy each other without any other responsiblities. It was definitely something i was not expecting nor something i realized i had missed. For those of you with kids, you understand.

The icing on the cake was my new anklets. Oh so nice! i am so glad Mistress decided on something to substitute for my metal collar. i am getting quite a collection of metal.

It just goes to show you that you do not have to go away to special time with the one you worship and love!

Long Overdue Time

2009-08-02T14:00:00.000-04:00

Mistress and i will finally be getting some long deserved quiet time when our daughter goes away to camp for the next four days. i am looking forward to spending quality time with Her. Pleasing, serving, and catering to Her in the way She really wants. i am working on some places to take Her that we normally do not get a chance to do since W/we have O/our daughter. i am sure several nice dinners out are in order. Maybe a movie. W/we will see. But this week needs to be time for Her. She certainly deserves it for all She does for me and everyone else.

i am also excited since Mistress purchased a Rimba and ordered anklets for me.

W/we will be sure to keep You updated on the week.

Her Presence

2009-08-01T11:26:00.002-04:00

This week has been particularly stressful at work since Mistress has officially begun Her withdrawl from O/our business in order to prepare for Her new job. It means that i not only responsible for my usual tasks but also Hers. Needless to say, She does alot and i knew i would have big shoes to fill. To add to the stress of my first week without Her, W/we had a piece of machinary go down and one of O/our key employees has been out sick for two days this week. So things have been hectic.

What i did realize is how much i rely on Mistress for guidance and stabiliztion. i have always known my position in O/our relationship but never realized that just Her presence is enough to make me feel better with the world, no matter how bad it may be. i had one day this week that was especially crazy and She offered to come in even though She had planned to not do so. When She came into work She didn't even need to do anything. For what it was worth, She didn't do much at all. But Her mere presence was enough to set the universe right and make things better.

It just really shows that Mistress does have the powers Her title dictates and how much She makes my life better. i am a lucky sub.

Summer of Funk

2009-07-19T17:12:00.004-04:00

No, i am not making a reference to the style of music. And i am definitely not commenting on a smell. i am speaking of the mood. It seems, after getting caught up with some of my favorite blogs, that there is a large portion of D/s couples going through a "recession" of their relationship. Mistress and i have been very on again off again this summer, and it seems we are not alone.

Domina and anthony(Here) are going through their own taxing of their relationship, even after Domina's vacation. Stress, work, family, and economics have put a strain on their time together. This has been the case for Mistress and i also. Though, i found it interesting that it led to their "switching". i know Mistress would never want, fantasize, or desire any part of switching roles. i wouldn't even know what to do. This probably explains why i never had sex in my first marriage. Since i couldn't initiate it, my ex most likely thought i wasn't interested. But i digress.

Elle over at Kinkunleashed has run into hard times with boy toy and has been flirting with even spliting up. Not surpising, but stress from work and life have effected them also. Maybe this sinking economy is trickling down to parts of people's lives they had not expected.

It is really ashame because the weather(especially here) has been nice and moderate and not overly hot. One would think that would raise folk's spirits and in turn fuel that primal D/s fire. i don't claim to know whats going on, but there is is something odd going on this summer.

Let's hope this funk lifts soon.

Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

2009-07-13T03:52:00.002-04:00

i don't even know what has been happening this summer with all the sickness. It seems we have had a outbreak of Swine Flu in which O/our daughter brought home from day camp. This has led to dealing with someone in the house being ill since before the 4th. This has really put a damper on O/our time together. i am pleased to relay that Mistress allowed me to enter Her and cum over the 4th weekend. It has been a very long time since Mistress has allowed me to enter Her and i am very thankful for Her generosity. It was wonderful to make love with Mistress and please Her that way.

Since times have been a downer lately(with the exception of last weekend), i thought i would bring some humor and observations i have been making recently. Mainly, my observation of D/s or BDSM in the media. i have decided to share some of my favorite humorous examples that have been out lately.

This one has been probably the most popular. No question it is a very well done ad. When it aired, i remember Mistress and i looking at each other and smiling. i think we still do it every time it comes on.

The second ad i stumbled upon in a search for one of my favorites. For the life of me i couldn't find the commercial i saw a long time ago. When i actually did find it, the site it was posted on had been taken down. In the process of a renwed search, i cam across this T-Mobil commercial.

This last one is my absolute favorite. i was so excited when i finally was able to track it down. i hope this puts a smile on You and helps as everyone gets started back to the work week.

Missing my Collar

2009-07-03T18:39:00.002-04:00

As some of You may have noticed that i changed my avatar icon recently. If You are still wondering what i changed it to, i wilkl explain.

One day, i was feeling deep and philosophical and i started pondering my collar and my submission. Until then, i never realized the connection of the three rings(until recently)wear. The smallest, being my wedding ring. Needing something light and extremely durable, Mistress helped me pick out a titanium ring. i know what You were thinking, but no, i am not that small that that was my cock ring.

Which brings me to the second ring. i purchased it as a gift for Mistress when W/we first started O/our plunge into D/s. i had it delivered to the house while i was at work. If you are looking for an outstanding metal cockring, this is it. HERE

Lastly, Mistress purchased a steel collar for me while i was away for an extended time on a work trip. She had it waiting for me when i got back and needless to say i was very excited. i naively wore it 24/7 for quite a while. Then a job change to being employeed to running O/our own business led to Mistress deciding that W/we shouldn't be so obvious. The moment that changed O/our perception of what the public saw was when a customer complimented me on the collar and commented "Kinky". It was positive but seems that W/we not as naive as W/we were before.

So now i usually wear it in the winter but do not have a substitute to don during the summer months. Mistress has discussed anklets, which would be exciting also. Any readers have ideas, W/we would love to hear them. In the mean time, i will be missing my collar.

"Life...don't talk to me about life"

2009-07-01T19:27:00.004-04:00

That is one of my favorite quotes from "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" in which Marvin the Manically Depressed Robot responds to one of his crew-mates. Sometimes i feel that it the voice in my head when things get crazy. It is a constant balancing act between the demands of house/work and ensuring my Mistress' pleasure. Much of the time, "life" gets in the way. i am sure it is the same for Her. Not only has Mistress' been working on Her Master's degree(just after finishing her Bachelors) but has recently accepted a new job that will take Her away during the work day. On top of all of that, i had all of my obligations recently which included a college friend visiting on vacation from the Middle East. Of course, when all that is going on, family has upped the ante with their own crises which needed our attention(justifiably)

Somewhere in the middle of all of this, there needs to be time for Mistress. Don't get me wrong, there is ALWAYS time for Mistress. Just not the kind of time that allows for quiet and intimate bonding. All during this, W/we have been working on upping the ante(so to speak) on O/our own relationship. i simply adore Mistress and am so proud of all the work She does does for Herself and O/our family. i am in awe of what She gets accomplished each and every day. She inspires me to do more, work harder, and most importantly, be a better sub. i know that all of these things She is doing will bring better things for O/our family, i just hope that it may bring some more quality time.

All i really know, is that i need to make some time for U/us to get away soon and leave some of O/our responsibilities behind. She deserves it. For all of Her work. And for how wonderful She is. The last thing i would like to see is either of U/us turing into Marvin the robot.

Fit to Be Tied

2009-06-22T20:32:00.003-04:00

In my previous post Back to Normal i stated how nice it was to get back home and start putting some time back into serving Mistress. it seems that i was incorrect in saying that things were "back to normal". It seems that "normal" doesn't even scratch the surface on how things have transpired between Mistress and myself.

To say that Mistress' sex drive and dominance has been on overdrive would be an understatement. Between spending some incredible intimate time with Her, She has found a way(either with or without me) to knock off 10+ orgasms a day.

i must rewind a bit. When W/we came back from O/our trip i misplaced some of my efforts towards serving Mistress and once again managed to get myself into some hot water. After a long discussion mid-week, i came to a better understanding of how i overlooked oppurtunities to support and serve Her. As a result of O/our discussion, Mistress decided W/we did not communicate enough and it was past due to visit a list of our desires, fantasies, and limits. Needless to say, many of our answers have changed quite a bit since O/our first visit to the list. Many of our answers reflected O/our current location on O/our voyage through D/s. Some items have also led us to more reflection and ideas.

Needless to say, Mistress was very turned on by touching base on our desires and limits and it fired off a fury of Dominance. Between requesting my assistance of reaching orgasms and giving Her Eroscillator(and Magic Wand) and heavy workout She has unleashed a new level of sexual energy i have not seen in a long time. Mistress started out the weekend with having me wear some panty hose over my pantys and talk of having me sucking some cock for Her enjoyment. She had me always thinking of Her every time i had to leave the house between Her talk and sexy text messages. i guess i know why the teens are so into it.

The pinacle of the weekend was when Mistress decided to put Her rope tieing skill to work on me by lashing Her cock, to my feet and wrists. She then procedeed to tease me with clothes pins on my nipples and balls. She allowed me to stroke myself, but only with one finger. When i proved that i could reach orgasm that way She had me fuck the bed to get myselft to cum. It was very challenging, but as soon as She started moaning from rubbing Her own pussy, i was sent over the edge.

i would have to say, things are not exactly normal. But if this isn't normal, i would like to start making it more common place. This hardly does justice to all the activites of the weekend, but this is much as time will allow for now. i am very excited where Mistress is taking this train. All the while, making me feel more and more submissive each day.

Back to Normal

2009-06-17T18:31:00.002-04:00

Getting away from the rat race of everyday life is essential to self-preservation. It is also important to take that time to bond with your spouse and children. Unfortunately, when you take yourself out of that routine and structure of everyday life, you sacrifice the good along with the bad. As my father always said, "everything has a trade-off."

Such was this hiatus in my posts. Mistress and I decided to take O/our children to Florida to the amusement park capital of the world. It was a great trip and much fun was had. Relaxing and intimate it was not. But W/we knew that going into it. It was very important for O/our kids to have this experience. I hope they enjoyed it since it will be a while before W/we repeat it.

Thoughout the trip Mistress and I worked to keep all that W/we had worked on O/our D/s relationship kindled. It was very challenging with the heavy schedule and constant child interruptions. I find it funny that so many newlyweds go to Disney for their honeymoon since it is set up to be the place to prevent any adult thoughts, feelings or tendencies.

It has been nice to be back, wearing Mistress' panties, posting to the blog, and having quiet intimate time together. It seems I was close to having to explain my shaving and underwear choice at a doctor's appointment Monday when I saw a different doctor than I usually do and he was interested in a more thorough examination. I think he would have been in for a surprise with my straight-forward answer.

Anyway, sorry for the delay. It's good to be back where W/we can be normal. Maybe not normal by other people's standards, by my normal.

Three Weeks

2009-05-31T18:59:00.002-04:00

i can only assume i have done well by Mistress since She allowed me to cum for the first time in 3 weeks. Having the problem of cumming too quickly is exasperated by the extra intensity of any touch when Her cock has not been allowed to release in three weeks.

i am pretty sure that the huge orgasm i gave Her while licking Her luscious pussy helped my situation a bit. i was told by mistress that it was a new level of orgasm for Her and was extremely pleased. After orally pleasing Her Mistress grabbed Her cock and stroke it to release in a short time. She had already been priming the pump while i was pleasuring Her and it was getting very difficult to not explode right there.

i promised to remain submissive afterwards. The next release will be the litmus test of how well i have done.

More than One Master(Domme)

2009-05-30T09:00:00.000-04:00

After reflection on the past two weeks, some good discussions with Mistress, and some wonderful advice from anthony, i feel like some of my problems may have been misdiagnosed. i am not excusing it but trying to identify my weaknesses and what causes them, Ultimately, the result is the same no matter what the cause, but i feel if i can be aware of the things that cause this breakdown, then i can do better by Mistress.

Mainly, i am a lazy person. i know myself well enough that i have two speeds. Stop and Go. And it's ALL stop and ALL go. So when things get to a point where i am not doing things that are meeting Mistress' needs and not even doing things for myself, then i am at stop. When i felt this and got a swift kick in the ass to get moving, i got right to work. Not being lazy, but misdirected my energy. i get in the mode of cleaning and doing more chores so Mistress has to do less. The problem with it was not the chores were bad, but the REAL needs that have been clearly presented had been overlooked. When it all came down, i realized i was putting things i thought were important and submissive to Mistress instead of doing what She requested.

Add to all this the visit on my overbearing parents and my daughter's first sleepover for her 7th birthday. She had 5 girls sleep over and it seems some of them felt that i was their slave. Being a people pleaser created a situation in which i was throwing gasoline on the fire(instead of water). i am sure this put me further and further in the dog house even thought i felt like i was working very hard to well by everyone. When, the only person i needed to be doing well by was Mistress.

These are by no mean excuses or justifications for my behavior but identification of things that cause me to behave in a way that is not becoming of the submissive Mistress deserves and i wish to be.

A special "thank you" to anthony for his comment on my earlier post. he really has a wonderful way with words and i am jealous on how well he can express himself and how clearly he can present his thoughts. i look forward to spending more time with both anthony and Domina so i garner more advice from O/our new friends.